Last night and yesterday and this morning too, I guess, were another wake up call. I've just been crying and looking up storage places. Ita either I'm moving out to sublet or just moving out period. And I somehow have to try my hardest not to see this as a failure at being an adult or at taking carw of myself and my things. I don't know what's going to happen in court today or what will happen in the two weeks I will be gone on a business trip. I hate that but hopefully nothibg so that when I come back I can make moves based on my own choices and decisions. I think its tine to start over. Im scared of what will happen, what choices will be taken from me, what decisions made for me, if I don't. So one fear is outweighing the other. And that us how this decision is being made.