#averydotavi

Yes, as much as i hate to admit, i have come back unto this refuge. why? is choice simply not enough? is it not enough to say [i have grown] more than tired of stories and posts and reels and comments and shortform and etcetcetc enough to want something different?

or is it rather that i seek a new group to listen to my whinging and whining, a new source of psychic energy so that i can please my psychic vampirism, a new audience for this display of a broken woman making a broken home and breaking innocent others all along the way (yes isaac, ive preempted all your bullshit)

imagine being 17. imagine that. im sure you remember and im sure that is all i have to say.

and more than anything [i wrote a stream of consciousness monologue of my socio-mental state and it got deleted so i assume even the Tao hates me enough to deny my attempts at grasping for any sense of connection or being understood]

and im sure that is all i have to say. and in two years i will say "ahhh remember being 19?" and we will all laugh around the fire and i will live and i will be older and i will have learned more. i will have made more mistakes and i will be a compounding of all the things to come before me…

just kidding it is all so over hahahahaha

join her in her death throwes as this self sheds her skin and destroys her soul through the cycle of cycles just as all thanes and strata have in the past.

walk that tightrope baby you've got it we're here for you at the least

here are some good things i like from it