#avery's posts

So today we have therapy. And then work.

But Luke is feeling much better and would like to come back, as long as our therapist helps to arm him against the Big Sad happening again.....

If things go well, you might be able to expect him back tonight.....

I don't think he'll be truly back for you guys, but he might update that fic soon.

So as most of you know, but some don't because you're new here, Luke, the actual owner of this blog and I, avery, are part of an osdd system. This is like DID except no amnesia between switches.

Tl;dr because of mental illness, we share a body with 10 other people.

This is a struggle. Luke has always struggled with, in his personal life, being viewed as separate but equal to wit, our core identity, the person who has lived the most life in our shared lives.

After the Josh Incident, where Luke and Luna, someone else in our system, were dumped because the boy didn't "have the mental capacity to grasp that there's more than one of [us]", Luke desperately wanted to pretend he's a singlet (a singular person alone in a singular body).

That, mixed with one of our roommates' behavior about us being a system, and he's just about had enough.

You all know that he's not online right now. But he's still been out and about, going to work, helping wit with her poetry collection, cooking, e.t.c.

But because of our roommate's behavior, all of us have decided to pretend we're wit all the time. This is exhausting. This morning and moments like it are moments of reprieve, because that roommate is not awake.

Luke, in spite of all of this, is doing well. He's hanging out in headspace a fair bit, too, just chilling. He wants to come back to all of you soon, and he will.

Another thing to add- we've joined an irl meetup group for multiple systems. This is big for us; we've decided we want to be seen as what we are, in a controlled environment, maybe make some friends, too.

So, at home, we are pretending. But on here, and at the meetup, we are who we are.

Thank you sincerely for letting us be who we are.

@prettygaming Luke says thank you!!!!

Luke: avery, what's your favourite thing I've written?

Me: oh! Lace, fool me once, nice to meet you, red blooded, my angel, chasing after dreams, the three of a kind series, you know- the good stuff

Him:...... damn I didn't know you had so many opinions

Me: Bitch I'm Your Biggest Fan