#avanyxaura

what growth actually looks like:

thinking there's a right answer

realizing there isn't

doing your best anyway

overthinking it

changing your mind

feeling guilty about changing your mind

making the decision

dealing with the consequences

surviving the consequences

calling it a learning experience

calling it character development

pretending this was the plan all along

for a long time

i thought being good at surviving

was the same thing

as being happy

turns out

those are completely different skillsets

so now i'm 27

doing a retraining

having mild existential crises

romanticizing train rides

questioning capitalism

trying to make art

trying to stay hopeful

trying to build a life

that actually feels alive

which is objectively chaotic

but also the most honest i've been