#autisticproblems

Given that I'm normal now and normal health interventions work on me, I've decided to write myself a handy dandy list of reasons i might be feeling bad.

Because I'm really normal (autistically) about not knowing why I'm stressed out and just assuming existence is torture and people are out to get me, and why don't I just curl up in a hole in the ground.

I'm glad I wrote my own rather than adapt something I found. It's arranged in order of how badly things throw me off balance. I'm seriously happy that my personal needs include researching stuff and social needs are reduced to a 30-second hug. Like, yep, that's my list. It was made for me. *crawls into the list and emerges on the other side as a twisted noodle creature*

OK, WHY DO YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT?

what hurts?

have you slept? can you sleep now?

food?

drink?

did you get startled / stressed?

need to move / go out?

do you need to research something?

hug?

bad texture / smell / light / dirty feeling?

When your hair is being washed at the hair salon. Here's why:

You feel the water touching your ears.

Uncomfortable position thanks to the weird angle of that chair.

You have to deal with the lights while they wash your hair.

When they apply shampoo and it hurts because they pull your hair like it's a wig.

When the water is touching your clothes.

When they are cutting your hair and it adheres to your skin, causing itching.

you try to socialize but it's kinda like:

Me: Hey, umm... do you... do you like *special interest*?

He/She: Nope.

Me:

when people say:

—Are you sure you're autistic? You don't look autistic.