For the past five days -- I could argue for the whole seven -- I have been progressively getting less and less sleep. From seven hours to five to, I think last night I slept for a little under four.
Discounting the obvious symptoms -- depression, forgetfulness, lethargy -- something I’ve noticed happening is that whenever I encounter a problem or an idea, the first place my brain goes to is why that idea wouldn’t work. Or why the problem is unsolvable (or not my problem to solve). I think what’s happening is my mental resources are so low that my brain is trying to conserve them by outright dismissing everything.
In a weird way, I kind of like this feeling. It feels, for lack of a better word, empowering. Saying no is something I’ve been wanting to develop for a while now, and right now, shit comes easy.
