#augustnine

The cutest 🦊💕😣

I don’t know. I feel less productive. I feel so tried. The coldness makes me feel a little sad and lonely. I was thinking about our last night talk but he surely fell asleep. I woke up around 10 in the morning and I had a bad dream of killing someone in our family and I was like running away with the responsibility. It was really crazy. I was just sleeping all day and did nothing at all. 

Around 12nn, he chatted me that he fell asleep last night and I just, “Ah kaya pala.” He replied that he will just cook and I said, “Okay, go.” He replied, “Are you mad?” I said, “No. Why would I?”. After that, he changed the conversation about the rent and showing his photo with his mom.

I don’t know. I’m getting used to his attentions again and it makes me hope for it again. I don’t know why I am investing myself back to him. I don’t want to lose him but why I feel like I’m losing myself already. 

We had a videocall earlier and it was like nothing at all. He is not talking to me or showing his face until to the point that he is about to leave. I feel like I was the only one who kept on asking his time again and I don’t know why I kept on doing this to myself. 

I felt a little sad today. God please light me up. 

Give me signs please.

Good night.

Love Always,