#atton

This isn't my art Video is on youtube under the link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D9ckhSprFIw

love the atmosphere and effort put in those shots.

@jan-jan-binks

🎵When I was

An apprentice

My master

Took me to see the ashes

Of the planet he just ate :(

it's particularly interesting to me in the context of an Exile who either:

loves Atton and despises Kreia, or

loves Kreia and despises Atton

because the two of them are so similar, yet so different

they're both perfectly neutral in terms of alignment at the beginning of the game. neither of them leans either way by default. they're both sadistic fucks. they both love the feel of power, of control. they both regret and justify their previous actions. they both have intense criticisms of both the Jedi and the Sith. they've both been on the side of the Jedi/Republic and on the side of the Sith. they've both abandoned/rejected and BEEN abandoned/rejected by both of them. they both desperately want the Exile to trust them, confide in them, lean on them, and only them — even with that aforementioned self-loathing. they're both intensely, potentially murderously jealous of others who hold your attention, your approval, your affection. they both try to protect the Exile. they both are willing to kill and die for the Exile

the difference is Atton can change

Kreia can't. no matter what you do, no matter how much you agree or disagree with her, no matter if you end the game with positive, negative, or perfectly neutral influence with her, she will end it as Darth Traya. she will betray you. she will put your life on the line for her own purposes. she will justify it with her own psuedo-intellectual garbage, and expect you to agree with her in the end

she's Kreia. she's Traya. she's static — and that's not an insult. she's a yardstick by which you, and your other companions, are measured. she's better than the worst you can be. she's worse than the best you can be. she disapproves of being good without selfish intent, and with being evil with exclusively selfish intent. she has a point. she's full of shit. she demands to hold your leash no matter what. she'll never truly, fully approve of what you do, and yet she'll convince herself you're the only thing worth living and dying for. she'll never truly, fully open up to you, leaving herself enigmatic even in death

Atton? he'll disagree with you. he'll bitch at you. he'll praise you. look up to you. love you even if he hates you. he'll look for your approval even as he swats away any "forgiveness" you might offer him. he's good if you're good. he's evil if you're evil. he follows you into heaven or hell, regardless of whether he feels he deserves it. he wants you to hold his leash. there's nothing left for him but you — just you. he'll claim he doesn't approve of what you do in some way, shape, or form, but (not so) secretly, he really does approve or disapprove of your actions. he wants you to be good, even if he's willing to give in to his worst impulses if you give him permission. he'll lie to your face, lash out when you ask about his past, then spill his guts the moment he feels you've earned it

Kreia will die for you. Atton will die for you — and he'll live for you

they'll both only admit they love you when they're on their death bed

what makes someone love one of them and hate the other? being used, vs being the user, knowingly or not, willingly or not? being the dog, vs being the master? wanting to be guided, vs being the guide?

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