#astradecays

@astradecays ( hideko ) said : ❝ i do need you. i wouldn't be here if i didn't. ❞

 ⋆｡𖤐°⭒˚｡⋆ ♪  —  he keeps his distance , just as he has for the past several weeks . if there's anyway to convince her that she doesn't need him , that she deserves better , it's by pushing her away . and , fuck , he's good at pushing people away . especially now . especially now that he wears his shame around his neck , thorned and angry . who would want a broken man ? a man who had been torn apart and pieced together as a mockery of that which he stands against . he's not the same man he used to be . he knows he never can be .

the man she loves is dead .

there's even a memorial she can go to to mourn him . hell , how many times has he visited it to mourn himself , to tear his throat out to bleed on the memories of everything he used to be . everything had been taken from him . his life , his soul , his body , his mind , the love of his life . there is nothing left for him except the grief of knowing what could have been .

@astradecays ( shi ) said : ❝ i don't mean to be too forward, you just seem like you could use a friend right now. ❞

｢ TERZO. ｣ —   doesn't he always ? he looks up from the pew he's sat in , head on his arms on the back of the pew in front of him . sister has been on his ass and he's not sure how much more he can take before he breaks and pushes her wheelchair over a fucking cliff . what more can he do ? he's earned a grammy for fuck's sake . he'd done that without her help . it had been he and his ghouls and somehow that wasn't fucking good enough ?

what about the congregation that adored him ? the ones who shouted from the crowd , the ones who wore his face on their chest and painted his papal paint on their own face ? what about the radio channels and the mtv and vh1 that got requests to play his music , his video . and still he wasn't enough to please her . he'd be worried if he wasn't so angry , so hurt .

but after another night of being told how much of a failure he was , being screamed at that he was getting too cocky , that he would be forgotten by the congregation and clergy soon enough ... all he wants to do is break things . which is never worth it when sister imperator has eyes every where in the fucking abbey . he's never safe doing anything that might piss her off , or something that she disapproves of because it all somehow gets back to her .

so he's trying his best to calm down and not take the anger back to hideko .

@astradecays ( shi ) : ❝  the way i love you goes beyond description.  even those words don’t seem like enough.  ❞

⋆⭒˚.⋆   guilt colors her eyes as he speaks . how had she not realized she'd been gone for so long . it isn't the first time that she's disappeared . though , last time no one could have begun to guess where she was . her face on milk cartons and missing posters . she'd sworn she'd never do that again . and she'd kept to it for longer than even she'd expected . even after finding herself in another universe , she'd made it a point to call home , to try to reappear within a few days of her leaving .

but sometimes the universe has other plans .

how had she been gone for more than a year ? she knew that things had been weird with the tardis after going through an odd anomaly in the milky way , but she had never thought that it would spit her out over a year after she'd left . when she'd realized , the first place she'd gone was to find him . not that she had expected him to wait , but because she needed to see his face , whether or not he was hers . she didn't expect the welcoming waiting for her .

@astradecays asked: i'm lost. (hide&ves)

Stepping into one's dreamscape was as easy as taking a breath for them now, years of practice from Sleep's influence paying off with each time they decided to use such an ability. Stranger's minds always held the same sensation, like walking UNDERWATER. Each movement was slower than expected, a slight pressure weighing in on their chest. Sometimes however, their very presence in someone's subconscious mind caused the individual's dreams to shift from what they once were. A natural thing they concluded, work of the mind alerting the body to something UNKNOWN and potentially dangerous lurking just beyond the veil of reality.

@astradecays asked: I can feel people's eyes on me. ( shi )

( Let them watch. ) That's what Perpetua wanted to say to the man she had initiated a dance with, to encourage him to throw all care what others think into the air in lieu of ENJOYING this moment, but she doesn't wish to push him. She'd be hypocritical if she did so. Compared to his sister Kiyoshi was not as sociable and much QUIETER which the antipope understands far too well in comparison to her own twin. Instead Perpetua nods her head, not uttering a word between them before she softly tugs on his sleeve and heads out of the main ballroom. But not before plucking two glasses of red wine from an offered tray and handing one over to him.

@astradecays (kiyoshi) i've seen you somewhere before. 𝔪𝔢𝔪𝔢 — ( ⛧ )

if there's one thing he's always prided himself in was he always treated his stage hands with respect. he liked to get to know them on a personal level. okay, maybe not that personal, but at the very least a first name basis. enough to know pet peeves and whatnot so he could at least attempt to make sure everyone is in good hands.

so with every new crew member, he introduces himself. he offers a welcoming handshake — both hands encasing shi's with a slight bow of his head. ❝ ah! — ki. . . yoshi, was it? great pleasure to have you join us. ❞

the warm welcome was . . . disrupted by the man's response. [ i've seen you somewhere before. ] the cardinal paused mid handshake. there was no hiding the confusion in his eyes. he held onto the other's hand maybe just a tad too long before realizing, promptly letting go and taking a single step back. ❝ uhh . . . aha. — yes. i am almost certain you have. you have seen my previous shows, yes? ❞

or, considering the fact that he's a recent hire about a third of the way into the tour. sure, this was the first proper introduction he's had, but there's no doubt he hasn't been seen before, one way or another.

{ Thanks for the follow @astradecays!! }

Well, this wasn't how this was meant to go. John was meant to escape to his bunker and wait this out. He was meant to escape in general and get back to Joseph as a man with a hurt ego.

But no, now he had a hole in his ear thanks to a gunshot, injured further with the dogfight in the planes (how dare that Deputy be better than him in the planes!) and now he was captured.

Damn it all why did this Deputy have to ruin everything?

"Least the walk was nice." Small talk, or at least an attempt at it. That smile was remaining on his face, as if he wasn't concerned with what might happen next.