#assignmentdue

Today and tomorrow are going to be hard. I have to complete a bunch of assignments for a intense summer class that I am taking right now. I feel overwhelmed and stressed. I fully recognize that I did it to myself and for this reason I know that if I caused it, I can fix it!

I am not going to punish myself or bitch about how I could have organized my time better during last week to tackle these assignments with less amout of preassure. I did have a great start but some mental issues interupted my determination, so here I am having to do a week load of work in a day. At this stage it is pointless to try to dicipline myself instead of doing what I have to do.

Here is a strategy that I will use to keep feeling present. I decided that I will focus my attention on my assignments while tring to smile. I will smile while looking at my own reflection in the mirror during my breaks. This is important because it will help me see who I am and remind myself how I look. It will help me feel more grounded and to not loose the connection to my being because of the stress. When I loose that connection, I tend to shift the gears into self hatered which usually results in overeating and feeling terrible. But you know what? I do not deserve to be mistreated even by myself.

This being said, it doesn't mean that I will ignore the very means of not working on the assignment last week. I fully acknowledge the presence of some mental issues and I will do my best to spent some time when them. It will happen as soon as I deliver my assignments with a high quality. I do not want to just complete them, I want to make myself feel pround of my work and efforts. I want to remain conscience what I am doing an why.