#asks:yj

My darling anon,

WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU BRING THIS UP??? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME??? WHAT MADE YOU THINK IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO HAVE THIS CONVERSATION??? and most importantly

WHO ALLOWED THIS?????

WHO???? (because it sure as heck wasn’t Mr. ‘Youngjae-is-mine-and-you-can’t-even-dream-about-him’ Jaebum)

But seriously WHAT THE ACTUAL FRICKITY-FRACK???? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO PULL, CHOI YOUNGJAE??? WHAT’S YOUR GAME??? (You want me to explode???? Well. Done. akhdKLDHAKLHA)

I mean, I thought it was bad enough when he posted that tank-top selca back in November with all that skin and that look at the camera and just....

AND THEN HE STARTED PULLING THAT CRAP WITH THE FLIRTY BED SELCAS LIKE

WHO????

ASKED????

YOU?????? 

I never signed up for this. I was perfectly content with him being gorgeous and handsome and precious and adorable and NOT A KING OF PROBLEMATIC SELCAS.

AND THEN HE SHOWS UP AND THROWS THIS AT ME????

THIS????

I just.... he just...... this just........ there are five moles visible right there AND THREE OF THEM ARE ON HIS NECK AND SHOULDER and my brain can NO LONGER COMPUTE BYE. 

Listen. I am all for an appreciation for how gorgeous Youngjae is, but COULD HE HAVE TONED IT DOWN JUST A LITTLE BIT??? I mean. We’re talking about his eyes being all cute and gorgeous and aimed right at us, and that’s enough already, but then he’s got his adorable nose looking even more precious upside-down, and his precious little ears being so incredibly cute and totally visible next to his TWO-TONED HAIR STYLE THAT LOOKS SO GOOD??? AND HIS JAWLINE LOOKING SO NICE EVEN WITH THE WEIRD FILTER??? AND THEN HIS LIPS BEING ALL PINK AND POUTY AND JUST---no. I can’t. And we hAVEN’T EVEN GOTTEN PAST HIS FACE YET. ANON. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME??? I’VE BEEN TRYING TO REPRESS THIS IN ORDER TO LIVE AND NOW. That neckline. That nape. Those collarbones. Those broad shoulders. THOSE FRICKING MOLES BEING ALL THERE AND VISIBLE AND ADORABLE AND-- I don’t have a thing about his moles. What are you talking about?

I just.

I AM NOT OKAY!!!

I MEAN WHO THOUGHT

THAT THIS

WAS A GOOD IDEA???

WHO ALLOWED THIS????

THIS SHOULD BE ILLEGAL. I’M SUING CHOI YOUNGJAE AND JYPE FOR THIS RUDENESS. x x x x x

This is not a laughing matter, sir. I am in pain.

AND THEN FOR HIM TO BE DANCING TO NEVER EVER WHILE LOOKING LIKE THAT AND WEARING THAT ILLEGAL CHOKER?????

Ahhh, I really think that it probably does say Ars Longa Vita Brevis... but since we haven’t been able to see it any more clearly and since Youngjae still doesn’t want to talk about it, we can’t be 100% sure, and it still drives me a little crazy with curiosity! And now the 2nd one is even more mysterious!?! The person who took the picture that’s going around also posted a few others ( x x ) where Youngjae’s tattoo can be slightly seen, but it’s not nearly enough to be able to see anything more than it looking a little like a ribbon! I’m going to be stalking all the pictures from this filming day though... that’s for sure!

HONESTLY!!!

HE’S SO BEAUTIFUL!!! HIS GORGEOUS EYE!! HIS LOVELY MOLE!! THE BEAUTIFUL CURVE OF HIS CHEEK!! THE LITTLE CORNER OF HIS POUTY LIPS!!

And then he blessed us again!!!

LOOK AT THE LITTLE FURROW OF HIS FOREHEAD!!! HIS LITTLE GRUMPY EYE!!!! HIS SCRUNCHY, SQUISHED FACE!!!! and I haven’t even talked about his hair and forehead AND HIS ADORABLE EAR!!!

He is so stunning and so beautiful and so cute all at the same time and I cannot believe how blessed we are to get to see this perfection!!! Not to mention, two pictures at once??? This Angel of Sunshine is spoiling us!!!

Really though, he’s been spoiling us and doing a number on my heart (a.k.a. ruining it, making me weak, shattering me, and leaving my heart an exploded mess) with so many of his selcas lately!! I mean,

WHAT IS THIS??? His flawless jawline!!! His soft cheeks!!! His precious ear!!! His lovely mole!!! His pouty, pink lips!!! The mole on his neck that I am totally weak for!!! His cute little nose!!! All in one picture!?! 

AND THIS PICTURE MAY BE SUPER BLURRY, BUT THAT GAZE!!!! BURNING INTO MY SOUL!!! HE’S SO FREAKING GORGEOUS!!! And his lips are way too nice looking here agdafkhkag…

AND THEN AGAIN HERE!!!!! THAT STARE!!! MAKING ME WEAK EVERY TIME!!! Honestly… I have seen God because that gaze ended me. But look at those cheekbones!!! And the way his hair falls into his eyes!!! Help me. I can’t even breathe right now. He’s too attractive.

AND THEN THIS!!! THIS PICTURE THAT I NEVER ASKED FOR!!!! I WASN’T READY, CHOI YOUNGJAE!!! WHO ALLOWED????? 

And then, help me understand how he can go from that HOT-AS-THE-ACTUAL-SUN look to:

THE SOFTEST, AND MOST PRECIOUS SUNSHINE OF ALL TIME AND SPACE!?!

Hello, my lovely!

Ahh, best of luck to you with uni!! It can be so difficult to find time for Tumblr in between classes and homework, but I’m so glad you managed to find a chance to get online! It makes me so happy to see you in my inbox! <333 

And isn’t Youngjae really becoming too much?!? I really don’t even know how to handle him anymore!!! I mean, he’s always been so handsome and lovely and cute...

and he was so breathtaking and heart stopping during Mad era...

but he literally stole the air from my lungs and made my chest hurt with how incredibly handsome and manly he looked in the Hard Carry video and teasers!!!

I mean, I really couldn’t imagine how he could be any more beautiful and flawless than that... but then ever since, he keeps proving me wrong over and over by becoming forever more manly and handsome!!

Even when he’s being cute, he’s become so manly and handsome and gorgeous that I still mind my heart skipping from his beauty in addition to his cuteness!!!!

AND THEN HIS BLOND HAIR?! Ahh, I really love Youngjae’s dark hair, like during Just Right and If You Do eras, BUT THE STRAWBERRY BLOND!!!

He looked so beautiful with that hair color!!! And now it’s a bit darker again, but even still he’s ruining me with how stunning and flawless he is!!! I really do think his attractiveness must be increasing more and more every day... and at this rate, I don’t know how I’m going to survive their comeback in March!!! 

Especially if he keeps up his trend of posting such breathtaking selcas... my heart is in actual danger from them, I swear!!!

My dear anon,

YES YES YES!!! I agree with everything you’ve said 1000%, my dear anon!!!

I’m so insanely proud of our Sunshine for going out there on the show despite his fear and insecurities and following his dream!!!

Knowing about that awful comment that he received and hearing that he cried because of it... it both hurts my heart and makes me want to cry myself, and also makes me even more proud of him for going out there and showing the world how INCREDIBLY WRONG AND INCORRECT THOSE HATEFUL WORDS WERE!!!

His vocal talent really is so amazing, especially considering how young he is and how short of a time he trained for!! I mean, he was only a trainee for 7 months before debut! And I’m pretty sure he didn’t even have any vocal lessons at all until he started working so he could pay for them... And yet, he has one of the most amazing voices!! I mean, the panel for mask singer acknowledged him themselves! The one panelist pointed out how skilled and beautiful Youngjae’s voice is, and Jimin pointed to Youngjae as the better singer between the two of them... which means a lot because Jimin has been getting a lot of recognition and praise for his voice and singing abilities!

I just know that our Sunshine is going to get better and better and better as time goes on... and my only concern is whether I can handle it, or if my heart will rupture from the beauty of his voice!!! I wish I could give him even just one of those thousand hugs that he needs and deserves and tell him how proud I am of him, and how amazing he is for going out and facing his fears... and how amazing he’s always been and how much I and others have always believed in him even when he didn’t believe in himself!! I really hope that the praise he received on King of Mask stays with him, and that he keeps that happiness in his heart for a long long time!!!