#askdepression

Hey, it’s okay. I get those days, too. The down days. Or where you just wish that time would just stop pushing you forward. In days like these, don’t be afraid to put yourself first. I know it feels a little impossible to do because homework! studies! expectations! etc! but if there’s something I have learned recently, is that it’s YOUR life. It’s still yours. In days like these, it’s okay to do what you know is best for you. Or what you know that you need. It’s okay to fall back a little. It’s doesn’t mean you’re never getting there. Just think of it as slowing down your run into a walk. I think the world will still be here when you’re ready to run again.

Also, don’t hesitate to ask someone for help. Your family or your friends or your roommate. Take the chicken soup and sleep okay? Try to stay healthy. You’re not fine yet but you’ll get there.

Have you spoken to your doctor more than once about wanting to go back on your medication?  Maybe you can try to go back and explain to her how you are feeling and what’s been happening. Tell her that you are worried and if she won’t let you go back on medication, ask her for some alternative options. A good doctor should not simply say “nah no meds for you” and then send you on your way. That’s usually a sign that it’s time for a new doctor!  

I’m not sure where you live, but do you have access to a walk in clinic?  The wait might be a bit long, but you would be able to see someone who isn’t your doctor. They might have a better recommendation for you.  

You can also try to see if there are any counselling services in your area. Sometimes talking to someone and learning coping strategies can be as effective as medication (without all the side effects!!)

Other advice I can give you is to start keeping track of your emotions. Based on the information you’ve given, it seems like a big concern of yours is your changes in mood.  It may be helpful to keep a mood journal (you can use either a notepad, a cell phone, or a computer).  Every few hours, or any time you notice a sudden change in mood, write down the date, time, how you feel and what you are doing in that moment.  You might begin to notice common triggers that upset you and you’ll be able to find ways to avoid those things.

Lastly, it’s worth mentioning that alcohol is a depressant. Meaning, that you’re more likely to feel sad/have depressing or suicidal thoughts while under the influence. It may be best to try to avoid alcohol, or drink in moderation for the next few months until you get your mental health in check.