How long did it take? For that memory to fade, to go numb? After that day, I couldnāt remember your smile. My thoughts ever turned to that last moment, the pain and... And now all I have left of those I loved above are those final moments. The tears and the betrayal. The fear...
āI donāt think I can give you the answer you seek, my love. I clingĀ to that memory rather than that of my heart being crushed. I hate that what wound up giving me great comfort was the cause of so much pain for you, but please keep that in mind going forward from here.ā
āThe answer is time, dearest. It took time to only feel your arms supporting me rather than his hand around my heart. To see the love in your eyes as well as the pain. You have hurt so much for the loved ones who have died in your arms, and yet you have given them so much.ā
āIf that is not the answer you seek I will help you find it.ā