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(I forgot to send this yesterday cause I didn’t feel good but HAPPY VALENTINES DAY THANKS FOR BEING A COOL MUTUAL)

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Anon,

Long reply ahead: I’ll try and address everything you mention!

1. I never want to imply that Eris is physically weaker than Azriel. He’s not. In the very first scene they’re together, I say he and Az are close in height. Az is slightly taller and Eris is leaner in build.

Eris is a war general and warrior. I try to make that clear multiple times in the story. The story has not offered a chance to show Eris in his role as a warrior/general yet, but there are scenes where he spars with Sylvan and Lucien and he owns the Autumn Council in Chapter 2.

I’m not sure I would describe my Eris as outright flamboyant… (I think Mithras more so, but some of that is affect).

But I want readers to picture Eris how they want, so if flamboyant and femme works, go for it! I definitely say he favors the LoA in looks (a plot device, but I can see how it may be interpreted.)

He is not a bear, and he’s bratty, he’s pretty to look at (all Vanserra boys are imo), and he kikis with Fidel, always serves a look, so Ok. I can see what you’re saying. Bottom line: there’s a lot left to interpretation. And that is intentional. Some of it is vibes and just what the character told me while writing him. I am ok with people reading him as a Twink (although I would warn against reducing him to solely that— he is much more). But I also think I’ve left it open enough that readers are not forced to see him as that, because the term Twink sort of implies he’s just one thing?

2. I can also see how easy it is to equate Mithras x Sylvan’s ship with Azris, since (without giving much away) there are parallels. But a quick reminder: Azriel and Eris have known of each other for 5 centuries and their mating bond snapped (in JEL) at the HL meeting.

Mithras x Syl have known each other for significantly less time. They care for each other and there’s chemistry/potential— I love them—but as of now, they’re not mates. So their sexual relationship is new. They haven’t explored or had the opportunity to grow.

3. One of the reasons I bring up this difference: I have Eris top Az in the last chapter because I want to express that Azris (through their bond, love/shared trauma) have an innate understanding of what the other needs in moments of crisis.

Chapter 12– the Velaris Chapter—Eris is overwhelmed and struggling. Azriel takes him to Velaris and Eris “lets go” emotionally, (musically lol), sexually— and Azriel is there to “catch” him, right?

Chapter 18—after Azriel’s torture scene—there’s a role reversal. It’s not about one character having power over the other— It’s about a character who struggles with vulnerability letting go and knowing his mate will catch him/carry him home (metaphorically).

So even if Eris is a twink (non-comittal because I want readers to have their own views and want to avoid being reductive) I don’t think it precludes him from topping, particularly in the loving/nurturing way he does this for Az, when he realizes it’s what his bat needs. It’s more about Azriel being vulnerable rather than submissive? A relinquishing of control, versus a giving away power.

TLDR: it’s not really about penetration. It’s more about giving each other the chance to be vulnerable, to trust, be cared for and to let go.

Real life example: Troye Sivan is a self described Twink who also identifies as a Vers…

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Deranged Ashblind Ramblings is a document I dump all of my brainstorming for Ashblind/writing ahead to future arcs. Its very very messy lol! Here's a snippet from the beginning of a later arc:

Helón did not close his eyes around his fellow prisoners. All these years with the guild, and this was the first instance he had been caught and arrested. He stared at his clenched fists, bound together in his lap. He already attempted to escape once, when the Imperials moved him from one cell to the other and bound his hands with simple rope. He now wore bracers that dulled the magicka within and around him, tethered by chain.  They were coming from Whiterun, nearly to Helgen where the trial and executions would take place. He had been held in a dank, flooded prison on the border of Whiterun and Eastmarch for about a week, his cell highly patrolled by Thalmor. Before, he was held in Darkwater Crossing for only a few days, arrested for the crime of affiliation with Brynjolf when they tried to cross into Morrowind.  Shadows preserve him, he could be sipping suja in Blacklight right now, or on their way to Gnisis. Instead, they couldn't have chosen a worse time to cross the border to negotiate an alliance with the Morrowind Thieve’s Guild. Brynjolf was already a high priority target after his stunt in Windhelm a few years prior, and the Imperials were on high alert with the war. And of course, Ulfric Stormcloak.

demonform is a concept for my next dnd character, Draven! I'm being pretty picky with it, i like the head and tail but not so much the body and limbs, lol