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"Ahem... A-ahem! ...Jaein!" More urgent than Chorong's voice, her finger prodded at the taller of the two's shoulder. She peered in closer to observe the fingernail sinking into the fabric of his jacket. It almost appeared as if the bunny painted on the tip was being drowned by it.

"Are you even listening to me?" She took her hand away to place it firmly on her hip. ( Could one even be certain that she even listened to herself? )

Chorong lowered her volume and reached for two of the packets of candy left on the shelf. One being Reeses in the shape of hearts and the other: gummies also in the shape of hearts.

Upon closer inspection she concluded that those marketing the products needed to get more creative. Whatever happened to chocolate roses and and cupid jellies? Surely, the only good thing about Valentine's Day or White Day was the influx of sales on chocolates and other assorted sweets. As if either of them even needed them ㅡ but such was the reason she brought her friend with her. He could easily bar her from shoving the whole aisle in her basket.

A cacophony of voices echoed through the large auditorium. Fans and other categories of viewers poured into the building slowly but surely to fill whatever seats their tickets listed ( and what they could afford ). The Dandelion member known as Cherry recalled her own past wishes of one day attending a concert of any sort. She never had the means to do so. The closest she managed to get was watching an outdoor performance from a hill across the way. By herself ㅡ but content in being able to sing along with the songs without a hint of shame.

She shuffled around the arrangement of chairs and tables set out for the artists. The sheer size of the stage set out before them was enough to overwhelm. Not only would they be performing for an audience of of the standard viewer but also for the groups she held in such high regard. Naive as usual ( with a small seed of self-awareness planted ), Chorong broke from her members to skip over to the large grouping of Phoenix members. Specifically in search of her long time friend. Some were hyper-aware or all the eyes on them, staff or otherwise, and made quick work of glancing away from the Dandelion member. She still lifted her hand in a meek wave.

"Psst... Psssst, Jaein!" She called out a mere foot away. His towering height made him rather difficult not to spot in the grouping. The moment she grabbed his attention, she waved again ㅡ this time with more enthusiasm and a bright smile. "Hi!"

Chorong rocked back and forth on her heels, nearly stumbling back. She seemed to forget they were not her typical tennis shoes. Her stance that followed ended up in a false show of intention, and she posed both of her arms in perfect right angles. One up and one down. This earned a few sympathy laughs from anyone who happened to witness her embarrassing herself. Nothing far from the usual in private.

On the day of Dandelion’s debut, a bouquet of flowers is delivered to Wishbone Records in addition to the other congratulatory gifts. Attached to the bouquet is a card written with neat penmanship that isn’t his own, relaying the message he had instructed while placing his order: 

Congratulations on your debut! Dandelion’s story starts today. There will be ups and downs, but cherish every moment from here on out. I believe in you, Han Chorong.  —Your friend, Ryu J.  

“Someone left you something, Chorong.” “Uh. What? Why?” The voice of her manager stirred her from her brief nap in one of the break room chairs. An empty tray of food sat in front of her. She stumbled into the small entrance to see the gift that was supposedly left for her. Her first assumption led her to believe it was a fan gift, but peering into the card told a different story. One that made her burst into laughter. All she could mutter under her breath ( all the while shaking her head in disbelief ) was, “Seriously. This guy. He must be making fun of me to suddenly be this nice…” Although, he was technically a senior idol, so it should be expected. She would keep the flowers for herself, but the other gifts she planned to distribute to the other Dandelion girls. After all, a gift for her was a gift for them, too.

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kiha shifts on his spot and hums softly. "i think..." and then he pauses again, trying to find a way to articulate what he wants to say.

technically, kiha feels like he already replied to this since when he talked about his wishes, having what for him would be a perfect success for phoenix in the future — and in the end not only for phoenix but for himself as well. but it's also hard to define what exactly would be a perfect success for him when it's something they have yet to achieve, it's something that kiha has yet to experience to confirm that it's indeed the kind of success that he'd want, or even to see that would be even real—

or maybe not. because perfect is hard to achieve if even possible, maybe the main vocal is starting to overthink this question or at least going to a way that he shouldn't.

"a comfortable success." he finally replies after a moment of silence. "one that allow me to continue in the industry comfortably" and he's not opening the pandora box of whether it's even possible to continue in the music industry they're in comfortable or going into more detail of what they comfortably means unless of course ash asks him to. " but still not something overwhelming, you know? i want to still enjoy our performances, making songs and being recognized and acknowledged for it, but i don't want it to be turned into a job that i'm forced to only think about numbers and what sells more—"

"or to feel so burdened and nervous about performing that it doesn't feel good anymore." he sighs dramatically but he's also smiling. "sounds pretty hard to achieve, doesn't it? i still hope phoenix can get there sometime though."

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"easy. everything, anything." he has to do aegyo to get more fans? he'll do it. wear more pink and pastels? sure. curl his hair to look cute? ew, but okay. he'll do anything, even if it means lying about his background (done), faking a personality onscreen (done), and pretending to be someone he's not (done). he'll even pretend his name isn't min seojun if it'll get him where he wants to be.

if he had to pick just one thing, it would be no competition either. one would think that he'd change the family he was born into but no, he wouldn't swap seoyul out for anything — not even money, and that says a lot. he would change the fact that his family is poor, because if they weren't, his mother wouldn't have gotten herself embroiled in all those debt, and there wouldn't be anything for his parents to fight about. his father wouldn't have walked out on them and they wouldn't have needed to take on all those part-time jobs growing up. they could've gone to college and he could've been more than what he is now, but mostly, he wouldn't need to lie about his background. 

he wouldn’t ever admit that though, his pride wouldn’t allow it. instead, he settles with a vague answer, one that carries some truth, encapsulated in the form of a joke. "there isn't anything I wouldn't change.”

headcanon meme — accepting !!

"my height." kiha replies without hesitation and sighs a little too exaggeratedly to be completely sincere. "it must be so nice, jaeinnie, being a giant." but then his act doesn't last for long after those words and kiha is crumbling into a soft giggle. "i mean, it's not something that i want to urgently change but." he shrugs. he surely wouldn't mind if he was a few centimeters taller.

not that kiha was exactly short (he actually was especially when taking into account that he's a man) but considering how they were so many tall people in phoenix, or how surrounded he's by them — jaein being definitely in the list with his 1,80 and something and the thing that might hurt kahi a little is that the other is younger than him —, it does make him feel a little on the shorter side and consequently it's just something that other people can tease him about, especially when combining that with his tiny and rather chubby hands — which he supposes deserves a honorable mention because kiha wouldn't really be opposed to having bigger hands, or at least slender fingers instead of the ones he has.

not that it's enough for it to be an insecurity for him, but well, jaein did ask and that was easier to admit than suddenly going through a moment of self reflection of what, personality wise, would he change about himself. besides, he couldn't miss the opportunity when one of the tallest members in phoenix was asking that question. "it isn't like i'm unsatisfied with my height exactly." mostly, just sometimes on his bad days. "at least not enough to do that crazy japanese surgery to make me taller, but well, having a few more centimeters on me does sound nice."