#ashtarcommand

Candor is 700-year old commander of the Galactic Federation spacehip Azelda. She's originally from Cassiopeia.

ASHERA - ASTARTE - ASTAROTH - ASHTAR

Many years ago, as a teenager, I began delving into what passed as "Magick" using whatever information I could find, which wasn't much.  This was before use of the internet was common and the only access to information available was through libraries and bookstores.

Living in Oklahoma, as I still do, it goes without saying that information was very limited.  Not everything was Christian, but even the available alternatives were essentially the same.  The ole New Age crystal gazing happy horseshit was about as "heretical" as people were willing to get.  But it was what it was, and I tried to find some value in it.  The only two books by Crowley I ever came across at that time were The Book of Lies and 777.  Being completely unfamiliar with Qabbalah, yoga, tantra, etc...I took one look at these books and dismissed them as gibberish.  (Though I was never able to get Crowley out of my head).

For the most part, I would buy magazines about UFOs and the paranormal (such as Fate) and then order whatever struck my interest from the various ads those magazines contained.  One of these was a pamphlet called "72 Mantras of Power".  Yes, yes, it's very obvious where this is going, but again, I knew next to nothing, and certainly had never even heard of the Goetia.  So hook-line-and-sinker went my dumbass.

The "mantra" that I was most attracted to, and the only one that I consistently used, was "Astaroth", meant to bestow "good fortune".  Long, and very dumb, story short, I'm pretty sure I was invoking this "demon" on a near daily basis, naive and unaware.  And at this time I began having dreams about a "woman in the clouds" which I also began to obsessively draw over and over again.  She would guide me through various "dream realms" and teach me things, most of which I couldn't remember upon awakening.  

This was usually as a discarnate voice rather than a literal presence, with two exceptions.  The first exception was her revealing herself as a vampire and testing me by seducing me, a test which I failed miserably.  The second was much more pleasant and involved three nights of my dreams being invaded by these large white animals, of which the ram and the ibis were the only I could identify or remember.  As soon as they would show up, my dream would become lucid, and I would hide from them.  I wasn't necessarily afraid, I just knew they didn't belong there, I recognized them as intruders and not products of my dream.

On the third night, they gathered together and began walking in an oval pattern.  Then I was immediately transported to a world of clouds and faced with a beautiful, loving woman who radiated an ever-changing array of color that left me in awe.  Rather than the vampire before, I felt nothing but love from her, and even remorse.  Most of what she said was forgotten, but it was something to do with the nature of time.  She then became very sad, said she was leaving me for a while and that she was very sorry.  I woke up in tears, and finding out who she is and how I can get her to return me became the primary motivation for my interest in Magick and Mysticism.

I made no connection between my chanting of Astaroth and my dreams of her, though the connection is obvious now.  After this final dream of her, I descended into abject lunacy.  I became fanatically drawn to the books of the so called "Ashtar Command", and, over time, became convinced that I was some sort of alien messiah.  An alien soul born of Ashtar into a human body destined to guide the world to the inevitable UFO rapture.  The word "batshit" comes to mind.  Again, I failed to make the now glaringly obvious connection.

This was then followed by YEARS of mental illness, alcoholism, and suicide attempts.  A positive outcome of this was that all that Ashtar/messiah nonsense was stripped from my head and I came back down to planet earth.

To this day, I cannot figure out exactly what happened or why or how.  My feelings toward Astarte are complicated to say the least, consisting of both love and terror, hatred and respect.  All I know is that she is very powerful, and very deceptive.  I have no idea what she's up to with this "Ashtar" bullshit, though certainly it is no good, considering the hollowed out shells that his channelers always become, having obviously been consumed from the inside out.

But I also cannot ignore her loving side either, as little as I may trust it.  I know at some point I will need to evoke her with the Goetia and finally "have it out" with her, so to speak, but considering my previous failure to resist her seduction, I am, of course, apprehensive.  I also do not as yet understand what makes "Astaroth" so unique among the demons of the Goetia.  Meaning, why does evoking him result in the evocation of Her, when, as far as I know, nothing similar occurs with any of the other Goetic demons?  I know she likes to appear as the Virgin Mary, and Ashtar, and even as a UFO itself.  Just what the hell is she and what is she up to?  Is she the next Demon King/Queen primed to rule over the next major world religion, which this New Age/UFO stuff is clearly becoming?

Commander Ashtar Sheran is the commander over all Arcturian lightships under the Galactic Federation. Dracos beware...