Carpe Diem, they say
The film "Dead Poets Society" leaves me feeling nothing but emptiness. Now I have this huge void in my heart.
I know that this film will end with Mr. Keating leaving the Welton Academy, I just know since I first watched the film "Mona Lisa Smile" and they have the same vibes.
But I can't comprehend Neil Perry's fate. It truly shattered my heart.
The film tackles about arts appreciation, life philosophy and being passionate for love, for dreams, for something you want to pursue in life.
Carpe diem, they say. Such a short but powerful phrase. It's actually the triggering root of the whole film!
And knowing Mr. Keating's existence build my faith in humanity. He teaches the boys to embrace their individualism. I keep saying, where is my Mr. Keating when I needed one? Although I never take his class but I learned a lot from him. Robin Williams can really soothes everyone's hearts.
O Captain! My Captain!
The love I have for the characters in this film stays with me forever. They aren't perfect, they do have downsides. Notable points are Charlie's sexist lines and Knox's obsessive behavior. But in general, I love the boys' distinct characteristics and developments. I always love Charlie's wittiness and Todd's aloofness with everyone but Neil.
But I do relate more with Neil. Him wanting to pursue arts, him having strict parents and him feeling trapped in this cruel world.
Neil teaches Todd to speak but it's him who cannot speak for himself. Neil inspires Todd to throw what's keeping him feel blue but it's him who keeps and piles his emotions.
I can fully relate.
But my dear Neil, I have a lot of faith in you that maybe in this film, the likes of us do succeed despite the hindrances.
I can't really grasp mentally your cold su!cide.
You having the brightest smile and mind, you being the foundation of the club and you being the living inspiration to the boys.
This enters the headmaster's life philosophy of being a realist, it kills Mr. Keating's teachings of hope, dream, admiration and love of thyself.
When Neil went to Mr. Keating to say he feels trapped, his cry for help breaks my heart. When Mr. Keating asked Neil if he confronts his father about his struggles and he said yes, I know he is acting, fake.
My dear Neil.
He chooses to d!e than to live a life he didn't want. I just wished I have the courage to do the same.
He died young but he knows he did good and he was very good.
I died at 16 but didn't get buried until now. I'm not an artist but I do acting everyday. Faking life until it gets me or if I finally have the courage to end it. A tiresome journey, isn't it?
Although Neil didn't get to disclose his true feelings, he's still brave, the bravest of them all.
Carpe diem.
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