#aron angst

He looked at you with wide eyes and guilt across his face. All of his anger dropped instantly. “No baby, that’s not what I meant. I’m so-”

“I hate you Arón!” You cut him off by pushing him away from you and went to your shared bedroom. you took a deep breath and hold it in to stop your tears from falling. Arón quickly followed you so you walked faster until you reached the bathroom inside your shared bedroom and locked the door. You let out the air you held and let yourself cry. You heard a knock on the door so you turned on the faucet on the bathtub and let the water run hoping it will drown the sound of your cries.

“Y/N, please open the door.” He pleaded. You didn’t answer as you were busy trying to stop yourself from crying. You cannot believe the words that came out of his mouth. You sat on the floor weeping. His words cut you like knives, it kept on repeating in your head and it’s killing you slowly as it dawned on you.

“Please, Y/N. Let’s talk, baby” Arón tried to persuade you again. “you know I didn’t mean it” his guilt was eating him alive as well. You told him you hated him and he knew he fucked up. You never say things you didn’t mean and it scared him to death.

Silence. Nothing was heard besides your cries and whimpers that he can hear on the other side of the door. Arón paced back and forth not knowing what to do ‘til he came up on the door again and knocked.

“I’m sorry Y/N, please come out, let’s fix this” you knew he was close to tears as well as you heard his voice trembles.

“Go away!” is all you managed to say.

He kept on talking and pleading on the other side while you strip out of your clothes and dip yourself on the bathtub. You managed to block out his pleading voice. It stopped after a while anyway. You splash your face with water hoping it would clear your mind as to what you need to do. You were contemplating whether to forgive him with all the begging he said or leave him. After all, he called you a slut. You love yourself enough to let anyone call you things like that specially when it’s not true.

After what felt like an eternity on hell. You decided to get out of the bathtub and wrapped yourself in your robe. You looked yourself on the mirror, shut your eyes tightly wiping away the last tears on your cheek, took a deep breath and walked out of the bathroom.

Arón quickly stood up from the floor beside the bathroom door. You didn’t dare to look at him and went straight to your dresser. You grabbed a simple v-neck shirt and a pair of jeans. As soon as he saw you grabbed your jeans, he panicked. He knew you wouldn’t spend the night with him and it made him anxious. He walked up to you but didn’t dare to touch you. He knew better than to touch you when you’re pissed knowing it’ll trigger your anger and he doesn’t want that right now. He just stood there pulling at his hair harshly not knowing what to do nor say until you grabbed your suitcase and starts packing your clothes.

“what are you doing?” he asked softly as he blinked rapidly trying to figure out if what he’s seeing is real. Of course, you didn’t answer him. It was obvious.

“Y/N?...” he tried again walking closer to you carefully like he’s walking on a floor with bombs scattered around. You knew he’s scared. You heard it in his voice. Again, you didn’t answer him. You just continued to pile your clothes on your suitcases faster.

“Stop!” Arón said desperately. “Stop, baby. Please” he begged grabbing your arm. “I’m sorry!”

You jerked his hand away like what he did to you earlier and scoffed. You refused to say a word knowing you’ll just burst out in tears again. He started to grab the clothes you put in your suitcase and stuff it back into your dresser. You ignored him and continued to grab your clothes from the dresser to your suitcase while Arón puts it back in again where you got it from. You eventually got tired of it.

“The fuck do you want Arón?!” You screamed in frustration, your chin quivering as tears build up on your eyes again. Your chest felt heavy as you looked at his face. He looked so scared, his eyes and nose were red as well as his cheeks.  

“I want you to stay” he said as he tried to touch your face but you backed up.

“After what you said tonight? No. thanks!” you then continued what you were doing before.

“I said I was sorry” he let out a frustrated sigh

How dare he to give you an attitude right now. It made your blood boil.

“You think its that simple? You’ll say you’re sorry and the pain will magically go away?!” you stared at him sternly you might punch a hole in him in a while. “I’m a slut huh? Lets-“

He cut you off by saying “That’s not what I -” which made you want to slap him again but you just clenched your fist instead so you cut him off too.

“Shut. The. fuck up. I’m not done talking!” you said with gritted teeth. All your anger was out now. You never felt this much anger before but his words really got to you. you can’t accept the fact that after all you’ve been through, he had the audacity to call you a slut and to accuse you of cheating. He then closed his mouth and looks at you like a lost puppy.

“So, as I was saying.” You faced him completely now. Standing a few inches away from each other. “You think I’m a slut? Okay. Let’s talk about what slut means. Does it mean liking every single naked pictures of women I see on Instagram like you do? Does a slut let other woman grind on them and kiss them on the cheeks at a party like you do? Huh? Or was it like exchanging “friendly” messages all throughout the day with heart emojis like YOU do? huh? tell me Arón. C’mon, enlighten me. I want to make sure you know what slut means!” you were so angry you didn’t realize you were pointing on his chest pushing him lightly every time you’re gonna spit out words. You were breathing heavily as you finished talking. You waited for him to speak.

He didn’t say a word. He couldn’t. He didn’t know it’ll all backfire on him.  He was just worried about you when you didn’t come home but one thing led to another and he’s well aware he fucked things up. He tried to open his mouth and close it like a goddamn fish out of water but no words came out.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought.” You rolled your eyes and went back to packing while Arón on the other hand was so close on peeing himself as fear creeps in on him. He’s afraid to lose you. He didn’t want to. He’s not ready for it but the boy is stupid enough to call you out like that.

You screamed as you felt a pair of arms suddenly scoop you up away from the dresser. He then sat you on bed and knelt in front of you. He took both of your hands, clasped them together and held it in his own. He placed a kiss on it then looked up at you. he let out a tear and spoke.

“I don’t want to lose you Y/N” he sniffed.

“You just did” you spat back. The look on his eyes made you want to melt.

“No! No, please. I know I’m stupid. I fucked things up most of the time but I won’t let you go. I can’t” His hands traveled up to your forearms. Rubbing it lightly. “You’re not a sl..” he trailed off refusing to say it again. “You’re far from that. you’re the best woman I ever met. I knew you’ll never cheat on me, I’m sorry for accusing you. I’m sorry for all of the things I said. I truly didn’t mean a single word. I was just angry and jealous I didn’t think about it at all. I know it’s not an excuse but please forgive me. I swear to you this will never happen again. I’ll make it up to you. I’ll treat you better. I love you baby. you are the best thing that ever happened to me. Please, pleasseeee, stay?” he was crying now but you remained silent.

He grabbed you by the back of your neck, placing a kiss all over your face. “please” *kiss on the left cheek* “I’m sorry” *kiss on the tip of the nose* “I love you” *kiss on the right cheek* “Y/N, please” *kiss on the forehead* “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m sorry princesa, I’m sorry” he kept on repeating. thinking begging is the only way to make you stay.

“you really hurt me, Arón” a single tear left your eye and he kissed it away as well.

“I know, baby, I know” he continued kissing your face. “tell me what you want me to do, I’ll do it. Just don’t hate me” he spoke close to your lips.

“I don’t hate you” you whispered. “I was just disappointed. I never thought you would say that to me.”

He nodded in understanding as he pressed his forehead on yours and mumble “I’m sorry”. You let him. He hurt you but the love you have for him was greater than the pain he caused you. so, you placed your hand on his chest. You felt his heart pounding against it and you smiled a little knowing you caused that.

“Do you forgive me?” he swallowed hard, afraid of your answer, afraid you’ll make up your mind and leave him for good.

You smiled and nodded a little. “hmm” He returned the smile and placed a soft kiss on your lips. “Gracias, Y/N” he said relieved.

“fucking asshole” you muttered jokingly and nudged him a little. You pulled him in for another kiss but deeper this time. You felt him smiling within the kiss before he pushed his tongue in your mouth which you happily sucked in return. He gently pushed you back in bed and hover over you. you stopped him and turned your head to the side.

“no sex for you tonight, cabron” you stick out your tongue. He tried to grab it but failed. He just pouts in return. “Don’t use that on me now, this is your doing” you laughed as he mumbled “I know” and went back to pouting.

“off to bed then?” he asked and you nodded in return. After all, it was 3am now.

Both of you stripped out of your clothes and settled in bed in a spooning position.

Just before you drift off to sleep, you spoke. “Arón, I’m sorry too” you turned around to face him “for worrying you. I should’ve texted you, it would save us from all the trouble tonight”

“hmm. I’m sorry too. I was such a jerk. I won’t hurt you again” He smiled and rubbed your back “but just so you know, you really scared the shit out of me tonight, bonita.” He laughed a little.

“You should still be. I’ll shave off all of your goddamn little curls you love so much the minute you fall asleep and turn you back again into a fucking ava-” he placed his hand on your mouth suddenly which caused you to giggle.

“Please don’t say it”

“avatar” your voiced was muffled. You licked his hand which made him let go of you.

“Fine. I guess I deserved your wrath” he said dramatically.

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You must’ve fallen asleep somehow only to be woken up by Arón’s sudden movements. You opened your eyes to see him sitting up on the bed with his hands on his head checking if he still has hair. He let out a sigh of relief when he confirmed he still has it. You then laughed your ass off. He really thought you’d shaved it. what a silly boy.

“what? just checking” he looked down at you and laughed along. You started to get up as well but he stopped you. “Don’t get up. I’ll bring you breakfast in a moment” he planted a kiss on your lips before getting out of the bed.

He yelled “te quiero!” just before he closed the door behind him.