the bible didn't mention us
Summary: Dean dies at the end of s10, leaving a devastated Sam and Cas to try and figure out how to bring him back. Along the way they rediscover some old scars and accidentally create some new wounds, and try to accept the idea that healing and hope is something they both deserve.
Also they get two cats and grow eggplant in the garden.
aka the sam and cas weird girl besties s11 au
Chapter One: on and on like a river does (4.3k)
They'd never had rooms of their own before; not quite at Bobby's place, and even regularly visited childhood motel rooms never quite matched the monument of having a room to sprawl dirty laundry in and leave unswept scraps of paper littered across the floor.
Sam hates that Dean has a room now, because that means there is a physical space in the world that belongs to his brother; a vacancy that will reject all other molecules and atoms except Dean's.
So he stands there and stares at it, as if he can will it to cease to exist. As if he can shift matter around enough so that the material is replaced and the walls don't have holes from the hooks Dean drilled to hang his weapons on and the desk doesn't have a row of grooves dug in from Dean's absentminded toying with the knife.
Eventually Cas comes and drags him off to bed. Or Sam realizes he should check on Cas and ends up falling asleep in his bed.
What separates a habit from a ritual? The meaning one assigns to it. They're creating a ritual here, the way they lie awake and fall asleep in the half dark. Like if they do it enough times it will conjure Dean from the combined force of their nightmares and 3 a.m. sweat-drenched screaming.
Well, it's really just Sam's sleep monsters, but he figures if Cas is right there next to him then he has one less fear to dream about.
It's not comfortable at all; Cas sleeps like his body does not how to lay against a bed, and Sam spends more early morning hours pacing through the Bunker than under the covers. Still, they collapse into each other because there’s no one else left standing on this barren graveyard of a hill.
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thank you @suncaptor for your amazing sam and cas takes that helped inspire this and @bradycore for letting me bounce this fic idea around with you
tagging some peeps who might be interested: @castielsupernatural @bixlasagna @heaven-ecologist @jasminecas @hellygf @angelhannah @castiel-kline (i dont usually make tag lists sorry if this is annoying just feel free to ignore)
