I don't want to share this but it triggered me awhile ago and I can't help but to be sad rn. 🙁
There's this video on YT about "BTS talking about their girlfriends and dating" just recently and this comment caught my attention:
Just simply because we're thinking the same. So I put some of my cents:
And then left the vid.
But the next day as I'm checking my notifs ofc including YT, I came across this reply on my 'simply thoughts':
I was really Jungshook.
I know I'm a late Army and obviously I'm late on gathering some infos about them including their past. Ofc it hurts a little, as we all know being a fan sometimes gives you this fantasies and everything (don't tell me that you didn't? 😏) But as for me, I understand that they're human too and everything can happen. They can date, (as we also know BigHit allowed them) , have family and etc., the reason why I said that it's the saddest truth. Because it's the truth. I'm just stating the reality. It's sad because who wouldn't want to be the love of their lives right? It's just impossible because we are in all different circumstances. And honestly, I got offended by this Army. I didn't meant anything wrong and she replied like I'm a crazy sasaeng. So I gather some courage and replied this to her:
And ended it there. If she gonnna reply to that, I'm not interested to know. I've got no time for some sns petty war. 💅
But at the back of my mind I did ask myself what she said: "Am I being delusional?" Even though it will sadden us fans if the time comes, I know I will be happy for them. Because they will be happy too. And that's what matters the most right? So am I being delusional rn? 🙁 The thought saddened me and I've decided to step back for now. I know this is so petty. But look at me rn, it triggered me again. Call me sensitive but that's what I'm feeling and I won't be sorry. Maybe I'll be a quiet fan (again) starting today. Too much interactions hurt us sometimes so bad, I guess. 👉👈
