#arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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i just want to draw all day... but my finals... MY FINALSS!!! WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I LOCK IN DURING MIDDLE SCHOOL HUH!!! I'm gonna invent a time machine and beat up mini-me for playing like 14 hours of video games instead of drawing.

i cant stop thinking about summer camp romances. last year i fell head-over heels in love for two weeks, did nothing about it of course. she couldn’t have ever liked me back, could she? a girl once told me she was bisexual and i thought i had a chance. apparently she doesn’t like nonbinary people. two years ago i was harassed by boys who thought me being desirable was so impossible it was funny. a friend of mine had a horrible relationship with a manipulative boy. i don’t want that. i fear being that boy. so many of my friends are getting shitty boyfriends and i can’t see myself as anything but someone’s shitty boyfriend, at best. i’m bisexual but non-practicing because i don’t think a guy would ever like me. a friend tried to set me up with a girl who rejected me because i’m trans. my friends are getting shitty boyfriends and beautiful girlfriends, and i’m going on summer camp so soon. i’m in love with all my friends. i want a messy teenage romance. i want a shitty boyfriend of my own i want to be a normal teenager. last year i found a spot on the site - secluded, by a river, a path concealed by bushes. and i wanted to show it to someone like in a teen movie of my own.

OH FCK IBETTER NOT FIND OUT WARERA JEANNE WAS ON THAT HARDDISK OR ELSE IMA BREAK A WINDOW