I feel like I'm starting to approach the tail end of this break up.
I feel like I've mostly accepted that it's over now. I'm still not sane, but I accept that the chapter is done.
I'm volatile these days, but it's due to introspection now. It's learning how to handle myself again and restoring my self worth and self.
But it's only been like 9 days since the decision to move on. It took me nearly 4 months just to get to this point.
Will this feeling stick? A week from now, will I be okay? Will my friends still stick by me? I feel like I'm still vomiting out toxins out of my system.
Please do what you must to protect yourself, even if it means not talking to me for a while. If it's too much, I get it. I'm trying not to overly depend on one person for too long so that the work is spread out amongst people. All of this is really heavy for me. I can't imagine offloading it all to one person and expect them to carry everything on top of their own baggage.
And now, looking back, I can't believe I was hoping that would be the case for my partner.
Ugh.
