#ardatli whines

I am also missing half my belly button.

Srsly.

The bottom rim is gone. kaput. Like it was never there. I have a slope up from my belly smooth enough to shield-surf on, minus the healing scar from the gallbladder yeeting.

(On the plus side, it looks like the surgeon went in through the bottom in order to save my navel piercing, b/c everyone had told me he was gonna go in through the top, which seems untouched. 22 years, two laparoscopic surgeries, and two pregnancies later, that bitch survives!)

Ugggggggh. I am having the HARDEST time getting motivated to finish my WIP big bang fic. I just. 29,000 words in, another 10k to go, probably, and I just can't. get. motivated. 

I think a large part of it is knowing that only something like five people are actually going to read it. It's a het pairing, that only I ship, for characters who have never appeared in the same Marvel continuity, as a side story for an AU I wrote over a year ago. 

NO-ONE is going to read it, so why the fuck am I bothering? 

For me, I know, I know. I do have a story to tell with it that I like.

The other shinies keep creeping up on me (Dale Cycle! Next original book outline! Billy/Teddy stuff from Profs!AU! Amerikate!) and I'm trying hard to find the piece of me that was so jazzed to write this. 

Hopefully we won't be waiting another few years to get someone else putting the pieces of the team back together. 

Eliiiiiiiiiiii.