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I ordered a pizza earlier and I feel terrible about doing so.

I think I overspent for Christmas. Bought my mom a Keurig Vue and my little sister a (used) Nexus 7. I got a shirt and a pair of fleece sweatpants. I really wanted a nice robe, but whatever, the pants are pretty nice. Not really expecting anything else. That's just how it goes for me these days.

I'm pretty sure when I'm an old man looking back on my life, my one regret will be not pursuing a career in professional wrestling.

There are 33 chapters of R Kelly's Trapped in the Closet. One of these days I'm going to watch all of them, and live blog it. 

So I recognize that my fleeting, ephemeral self-confidence is my greatest weakness, so my question is: What do I do about it? My poor self confidence has led to countless missed opportunities, doubting myself at pretty much every single step, and probably the biggest regret in my life. I mean, I know as an introvert, I'm not gonna be the center of attention, and I'm more than fine with that. However, I'd be so happy if I could kill, or at least quiet, the little voice always telling me "They won't want to talk to me", "I don't want to bother them", "Why would she be interested in me?", etc. I just don't know how. Maybe someone out there knows?

So, I have pretty much everything I need to build my computer except the SSD and the HDD. I'm thinking about putting everything together now, using the drives I have on my current computer and adding the ones I ordered later. Granted, I get my new drives tomorrow, so it's a pretty low stakes decision.