#aprilletter

I’m trying to do this every month. I might not send this to everyone because not everyone has their fan mail option open and also it is very time consuming so please don't hate. But it is a letter for EVERYONE that is why I post it on my blog as well. And from now on I will start my letters with quotes.

  Hi loves,

First of all Happy Birthday to all of you who have their birthdays this month, I hope you have a great one!

"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than out abilities. "

April the month of laughter and Easter! Lets take this month to appreciate childhood and innocence. In all of us there is something pure and when we grow up we usually let it go in order to "mature". This is why so many people confuse being mature with being serious. To grow we shouldn't need to give up our pureness, yes, there is a time and place for behavior and comments but we should always make a time where we can rejoice in the freeness of being once again childish and innocent and pure. We choose who we want to be and we decide the balance of our lives. What we are, is not what we say we do is what we actually do. Having bad thoughts is not the same as being a bad person and as human beings we need to understand the difference. When people grow they choose to be less "childish", instead be different embrace it in a way that it doesn't interfere with your professional life. What makes you who you are is the decision we take and the things we act on. A lot of us here don’t consider ourselves good people I mean how could we be when we do to our body and soul what others don’t even dream of, we destroy it, but in truth we don’t destroy who we are we destroy the physical body and we start to lose our mentality and that is when we truly lose ourselves. Consider this for a change hating yourself doesn’t make you a bad person it makes you lost and complicated but choosing to be kind to others is who we truly are. I don’t consider myself to be a good person far from it, but day by day I try my best to help others and be kind because you never truly know who needs it and that is satisfactory enough and I have learned here on tumblr that you guys don’t see my self hate you see the way I try to help others you see how I try to be better for all of you and THAT says a lot more about you guys than me. You might not see it in yourselves but you try to see it me and that shows how you choose to be nice and loving because you know what is like to be hated and misunderstood and that’s who you guys really are, all of you, you are good and kind and worth a million nights of sleep, we all need to start forgiving ourselves for what society makes us think and start having thoughts of our own and making decisions based on happiness and wisdom and experience and me need to do that for us not for others. DO IT FOR YOURSELF! It doesn’t mean you don’t need help, you can ask for help, it just mean that you do it because YOU want to get better not because someone else wants you too that’s what recovery really is.

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