#april2005

Intern hours were cut this week. I was actually sent home 2 hours into my shift last Friday. Apparently some quota somewhere wasn't met and so they decided interns weren't important anymore. So I went from 35 hours/week to 22 hours this week, which is over a 10 hour difference if you aren't good at math. Which might not seem like a lot but when you look at the money, it is. So this week I was planning on having all this time on my hands, but then I was called Tuesday evening and asked to pick up hours because a technician in a store walked out, so then I ended up with a 12 hour day Thursday and 8 hours today. Yippee!

But then I was hit with a bunch of "food suprises" and it all went downhill. Something important to know about me: I plan all of my meals out to a T, because when my blood sugar drops too low and I don't have an idea of what I'm going to eat for my next meal, I make really really bad decisions. Like, I pick the most high fat, high caloric meal and binge on it. Or a variety of high fat, high caloric things and binge on them. And God forbid I get hangry, then on top of that I get nasty. So... that happened this week. I waited too long to eat lunch Wednesday and then was offered free pizza, so I ate it. Then we didn't have anything planned for dinner that night. I went into hangry mode and when my mom ordered chinese, I went for the deliciously fried sweet & sour chicken, and tried to rationalize it by getting white rice instead of fried (it's still carbs...). Thursday was my 12 hour day and it was split between two different stores. So I did a 6 hour shift at one, then had to drive an hour to the next, then worked another 6 hour shift. And in between I barely had time to drive through the Burger King drive-thru and eat it on the way. Of course I didn't plan ahead and pack a lunch to eat on the road because someone forgot to go grocery shopping this week (who, me??) So I had a wonderfully fattening and tastey whopper and fries. Then when I got to the next store, the pharmacist had bought a BBQ chicken pizza with ranch crust (who knew that was even a thing??) & of course because it was free & he was highly pressuring me to eat it, I had two slices of that for dinner. Omg, my stomach is starting to hurt just thinking about all of the bad eating I did this week. While we're still doing confessions though, I guess I have one more thing I have to confess. Oh God, this is so embarassing, I can't believe I'm sharing this. So then on top of all of that horrible, disgusting, delicious, fried, processed food, I ate an entire container of vanilla frosting by myself in a week's time. There, I said it. I had no Special K snack bars or cocoa roasted almonds to satisfy my sweet tooth, so I would sit down each night and eat a few spoonfuls of icing instead. So pathetic.

So that was my week. If you have a food confession you'd like to share to not make me feel so bad, I say go for it. I'm all ears.

The good news is that I started over today and had a great day. I stayed within my limits and I plan to do so the rest of the week as well, now that all temptations have been eliminated and I FINALLY went grocery shopping.

I'm sharing my fitness progress/goals a little early because last week changed due to my work schedule changes, but I will still probably share my progress on check-in day as well (Which is in two days - eeekkkk!!!!). So since I've (almost) hit all of my goals for this week, I am progressing to more concentrated strength training goals. I am switching DVDs so I can advance to the next step up & we'll see what happens in a few weeks! I still can't seem to get over the 2 mile run mark... I always get bored and a little tired so I can't force myself to keep going. But maybe this week will be the week!

1. Hard-boil the eggs: my tried & true method is to place the eggs in a small saucepan, add water just to cover. Heat over high heat with lid on, until boiling. Let boil 1 minute, then remove from heat and let sit 15-17 minutes (If you let them sit longer, they shouldn't overcook). Pour out hot water, add ice and cold water and let sit for 10 more minutes, then repeat with cool ice bath.

2. Remove shells and dice the hard boiled eggs. In a small bowl, combine them with mayo, mustard, and vinegar. Add salt and pepper to taste.

3. While the eggs are being hard-boiled, you can heat the oven to 375. Cover a cookie sheet with foil and lay the pieces of turkey bacon on it. 7 minutes on each side is usually sufficient.

4. Assemble sandwich the night before with baby spinach, egg salad, sliced/smashed avocado, and bacon in pita pocket or on sandwich thins.

So what I am going to do is plaster my life with the tools to succeed. First, I'm going to post my gym's schedule on my bulletin board. It's difficult for me to plan my life too far in advance because of my work schedule, but I've create a word document calendar for the next week's exercise schedule. First I looked at the last two weeks... I only managed to run once each week. My new goal is to run twice this week and incorporate some weight training two days this week. A goal that's not too overwhelming, but still challenging. Next week, I'll evaluate how I did this week and go from there.

In terms of my diet, breakfast is easy for me. If I don't make the egg english muffin sandwich recipe previously mentioned, I have a protein shake. Lunch, on the other hand, has been less than desirable lately. I'm usually starvingggg by dinnertime (even if I do snack), which is not ok. Therefore, I'm going to premake two new sandwich recipes tonight for this week (I'll share later, promise!), and I have a new sushi salad recipe in my repertoire to try next week (Which I will also later share).

In order to also decrease hunger binges, I re-signed up for graze.com, which I highly highly highly recommend. I subscribe to the calorie conscious boxes, and I get 4 snack packs every 2 weeks for $6, you can't beat that. So I got those in the mail this weekend and I'm going to utilize those over the next two weeks if I get too hungry in the afternoon.