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henlo friend and thank you!!! I had a lot of fun with these and also did not shut up.

C: What member do you identify with most?

Oh man. That’s actually really hard? Obviously I’ve done a fair bit of ego-involvement with the crispy boy (no really??) but overall in terms of personality I’d say I identify most with Maia, show!Jace, or Simon.

Maia has had a lot of shit happen but she’s incredible in how much she keeps working towards her dreams and supporting the people she cares about. As much as she knows and has learned to value and protect herself, she’s ferociously protective of her loved ones. She also has a fair bit of ambition, a strong sense of morality and justice, and feeling of responsibility--towards the pack, and for herself. I do see a bit of myself in her but more than anything I aspire to be more like her.

Show!Jace I relate to a lot mostly because I’ve projected on him so much (lol) but I really get a deep sense of struggling with himself and being closeted. He’s kind of depressed and sad and who can’t relate to that? But underlying all that he has a deep and almost desperate need for human connection and also he has daddy issues, so like, worm.

Simon is a giddy nerd who has a lot of weird shit happen to him and more than anything I think he’s just kind of...the everyman in terms of pop culture references etc. But he also has a heart of gold and loves like a golden retriever and who doesn’t want to be that?

To be honest I don’t really know why I latched onto Jonathan so much, other than the obvious daddy issues thing. Maybe it’s the frustrated sense of longing for belonging and connection, or the deep feeling of self-hatred or the profound desire to be better or different than he is. I think there are a lot of things Jonathan’s demon blood could represent that are a lot less esoteric or boring than “pure evil.” Also I just love tragic, powerful dumb bitches so yknow.

R: Are there any writers (fanfic or otherwise) you consider an influence?

Man I was literally JUST thinking about how much I’ve taken from JKR as a writer, not even on purpose but just in...she was the first writer whose work I truly soaked in daily for years and years, it’s not surprising I see her voice or her humor or her narrative/structural quirks coming out in my own writing.

I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?

Oh god, do I. I would say unhealthy power dynamics are both my catnip and kryptonite. I was actually just thinking about this too--I think the attraction for me is the catharsis of “controlled horror.” Abusive or coercive relationships in real life do literally terrify me, but I find them just short of fascinating in fiction. It’s like fiction allows me to experience and access and interact with that fear in controlled doses (like watching horror movies does for horror buffs), and that catharsis somehow translates as weirdly alluring.

S: Any fandom tropes you can’t resist?

I already answered this but I’d say the above paragraph expresses it better.

P: Are you what George R. R. Martin would call an “architect” or a “gardener”? (How much do you plan in advance, versus letting the story unfold as you go?)

I’m very much an obsessive planner, but weirdly neurotic about needing to be able to spin off whims or ideas as I go. I think having a sense of structure is essential, but allowing yourself the flexibility to look at the events you’ve planned or your ideas in new and creative ways is necessary to have anything new or spontaneous.

The backbone of the idea or plot usually comes to me as a whole, but I believe very strongly you need to allow yourself to innovate and spin off those ideas as the organic connections made as you write grow and mutuate the structure.

so like, both. also fuck grrm

Y: A character you want to protect.

Maia Roberts, Izzy Lightwood, Clary Fray, Luke Garroway, Aline Penhallow, Sebastian Verlac and Victor Aldertree.

I do have an inordinately exhaustive list, this is true :D

Okay, I’m going to go with Legion of Doom!Eobard because I’ve not really talked about him much. (Although don’t get me started on how he fits into continuity… It’s a horrible convoluted mess because none of the DCTV writers have any idea how to write consistent time travel and I’ll restrain myself from ranting about that in this post, but hit me up some time if you want me to explain my grand unified ‘what the frak is going on with Eobard’ theory.)

So, headcanons:

Eobard actually likes Ray a lot more than he let on. Yes, the dude is a total goody-two-shoes and was actively working to foil Eobard’s plans, but fellow scientists get a certain (small) degree of respect. Especially scientists who respect him back- Ray won a lot of points when he asked Eobard about the re-entry angle calculations. If he’d had more time, Eobard might actually have extended a proper ‘join me, and together we can be science nerds and also conquer reality’ offer, but as things panned out he didn’t have the time or inclination.

Did you notice all the model spaceships on Eobard’s desk in Doomworld? I’m just saying: Eobard Thawne, Space Nerd. He’s a total NASA fanboy. Watching ‘The Martian’ made him cry, although bring that up ever and he Will murder you.

Cisco lent Wellsobard his copy of the book, and before the Big Reveal they’d made plans to go see the movie together when it was eventually released, and oh look I made myself sad…

Relatedly, it was one of the things that irritated him about being stuck on Earth in the early 21st century- no manned space exploration. If it didn’t run the risk of screwing up the timeline in unpredictable ways, Eobard would totally have used the Harrison Wells identity to influence the scientific community and speed up space exploration efforts.

Martin Stein always reminded him of one of his academic rivals in his own time (one Professor Drake, who beat him out for the position of Professor of Speed Force Studies until he met an untimely, uh… accident), which was a big reason why he took so much delight in being Awful to him in Doomworld.

Since he had to keep moving between time periods in order to keep ahead of the Black Flash, Eobard took advantage of that to do some time tourism. A lot of the time when he ditched the other Legion members he was off hanging out in some part of history he’d never visited before.

Other times, he’d just run to some time period with power outlets and spend the requisite time to attract Black Flash watching television. He got through a lot of movies and boxsets while laying false trails to keep Black Flash off his back. (TV being a hobby he picked up while in the 21st century, because he had to fill his spare time somehow. You can’t expect him to spend all of his time rehashing his nefarious plans, after all- that would just be dull and repetitive. Unlike watching the entirety of Mythbusters five times over, which is a Productive way to spend his time, thank you very much.)

Eobard was always slightly jealous of the Waverider. Ask him about it and he’ll rant about how much timeships suck and how Speed Force time travel is the far superior method, but… He was always just a little jealous of how the Legends got a ship and he got a glorified time travelling hamster ball to drag his irritating allies around in.

Speaking of which, Eobard absolutely on several occasions threatened to strand Darkh and Merlyn in some forgotten corner of the Dark Ages if they wouldn’t stop bickering about who got the chair when they had to use the Time Sphere. (“So help me, if you do not stop bickering I will pull this thing over…”)

tHE SMILE FROM THE FLASH SEASON 1 EPISODE 10 REVENGE OF THE ROGUES

“keep talkin, snow bunny” like yall ur Working Blease

len literally murdering a dude for backing out on the job but then letting mick go WITH the painting if he wants like how Gay

any time they are in sync with each other i.e. fighting back to back or finishing each others sentences

um that bit “we look after each other, its you and me right” kill me

Hands are nice. ‘Trust’ is basically ‘Affectionate Hand Gesture to the Shoulder: The Fic’ and I’ve accepted that. It’s a whole Thing. 

Two examples:

“But that doesn’t mean it’s going to be the same for you,” he said, gently squeezing her shoulder with his left hand. “You’re full of hope, Ruby, and hope can be a very powerful thing.” 

Hesitantly, Ruby imitated Ironwood’s gesture from earlier, reaching over and putting a hand on his shoulder and giving it a reassuring squeeze.

Bats: do you sleep with stuffed toys?

yes, there’s 3 on my bed currently, and more in bins under and by my bed

Candles: what’s your favourite scent?

literally anything that makes me think of autumn

Skeleton: have you ever broken a bone?

no, but i believe i have bruised it a couple of times. also, i shoved a piece of plastic up my left nostril when i was 4.