headcanons for annie, mikasa, n eren with hanahaki disease please? (as in, they love gender-neutral s/o but s/o doesnāt love em back and BOOM flowers)
Why ya doing this to me, anon? In front of my SALAD? These all turned into monsters and I could h o n e s t l y make a full on scenario about the Eren portion because I got super inspired. Regardless, I hope you enjoy, anon! You fed my angst-loving soul a bit today. I also kinda cheated bc some of these (read: Eren and Mikasa) has plot twists but I HOPE ITāS STILL WHAT YOU WANTED, ANON.
Annie isnāt the type to open-up to anyone. Sheās so reserved and guarded that the thought of falling in love with someone seems impossible.
She has so much blood on her hands. Who could possibly love someone like her?Ā
When she meets them, everything changes. For once, Annie finds herself wanting to be around them, vying for their attention with each and every exercise.Ā
Her feelings so unnoticed until, in a joking manner, Reiner points out her massive crush on them. If this was some kind of ploy to harden her into a warrior, it wasnāt appreciate.Ā
The thing that crushed her the most was theirĀ response: laughter. A joke. A jest.Ā
āThatās impossible! Annie and me? Could you imagine?āĀ
Annieās heart fractures into thousands of shards, yet she remains calm and collected on the outside. The only person who notices her distress when she leaves for the evening is Mina.Ā
When the flowers start, everything changes.Ā
Annie couldnāt trainācouldnāt breatheāwithout being reminded of the heartbreak she was enduring.Ā
Gerbera daisiesāso fitting for someone who seemed to radiate the sun in her eyes.Ā
Ultimately, Annie decides to suffer with the pain despite how often she finds herself coughing up bits of petals and stems. The physical pain is nothing to the mental torture sheās going through, so she decides to leave it as is. After all, it wasnāt like she was going to live forever after inheriting the Female Titan. Living with this unrequited love sounded more appealing than losing it.Ā
Sadly, Mikasa is pretty used to bottling up her feelings.Ā
Her interest in themĀ is subtle, at first. Going out of her way to talk to them, checking up on them after training.Ā
You know, the little things.
Before she realizes whatās happening, Mikasa finds herself confiding in them like sheās never done before. It becomes easy to talk about the Fall of Shiganshina and her hopes and aspirations for the future.Ā
In short, Mikasa has never felt like this outside of Eren and Armin. She trusts them.Ā
Thatās why itās such a hard blow to see themĀ sneaking away at night, hand-in-hand with someone else; someone who isnāt her.Ā
Mikasa knows that it isnāt their fault for this situation. If she had been braver and confessed how she felt, would things have turned out any differently?Ā
The first night she coughs up petals, itās a disaster. Majority of the evening had been spend with her hands clutching the rim of the toilet, slick pink petals clinging to the corners of her lips.Ā
Gladiolus flowers signaling faithfulness and honor; Mikasa could have laughed at the irony of it all.Ā
Armin is the first person to understand whatās happening and immediately tells Eren, who confronts Mikasa about how stupidĀ sheās being. He demands to know who her affections are for, but she refuses to tell him.
After all, it isnāt theirĀ fault she never told them how she felt. How could she possibly blame them?Ā
Eren and Armin refuse to allow Mikasa to sit with her unrequited feelings. As much as the thought of losing her feelings towards them makes her feel, she understands that she has a duty to humanity and her family to fulfill. Reluctantly, Mikasa gets the surgery to remove the flower, thus sacrificing any and all feelings she ever hadĀ towards them.Ā
Several days later, in the middle of the night, theyĀ can only stare in disbelief at the soft, pink gladiolus petals that rupture from the back of their throat.Ā
Nothing is ever done half-way with Eren Jaeger.Ā
Love and romance were things he never felt like he deserved nor had time for. After inheriting his fatherās memories and realizing the atrocities of the world, he becomes much more sullen and withdrawn from almost everyone.Ā
Even if majority of his friends and even MikasaĀ didnāt seem to take notice of his rapid change in demeanor, theyĀ did.Ā
Being around themĀ made him feel normal againāwhole againāeven if just for a few minutes. Their smile became his most precious treasure and a thing he silently vowed to protect.Ā
It takes Eren some time to realize that heās in love. When he does, he chooses to bury his feelings in the back of his subconscious. He has a mission to fulfill and a whole race of people to save. No matter how much he wants to be with them, he canāt.Ā
He brings the hanahaki disease upon himself, basically.Ā
It wasnāt surprising to him that he began to hack up beautiful lilies of the valley. He wasnāt an expert on botany, but one perusing in the library told him that not did the flower represent purity of heart, but they were also extremely poisonous if ingested.Ā
Eren almost wanted to laugh. It was almost as though fate loved to see him suffer.Ā
Despite how dire his situation was, Eren refused to have the flower surgically removed and opted to not speak a word to a single soul. Ironically, it was themĀ who took notice of his peculiar behavior.Ā
After one particularly hard afternoon that he spent coughing up bloodied lilies, he heard theirĀ voice ask from behind,Ā āYou have it, too? Hanahaki?āĀ
Erenās heart tore asunder for various reasons that day. After finding out that theyĀ were coughing up flowers too (he interrogating them enough to learn that they were coughing up protea king flowers), he did his best to convince them to have the surgery to remove the flower, to no avail.Ā
The two of them suffered silently, together. They would never tell him who their unrequited love was for and Eren never pressed the subject.Ā
In another life, maybe things could have been different for them. After all Protea Kings represented courage and transformation. If only he had pressed them harder about it.