March 23, 2009? i was happy. not saying that is a change to now - it's not. i'm currently happy, but not for the same reasons at all. you could even say theyre opposites.

2009 was a year of fun, innocence, playful relationships with people i hardly knew at all. i was in school, fit in with the friends i had at that time and had no worries or cares about passing year 11 or even a thought about year 12. I was in a relationship which was fun, happy, joyus, that hadn't reached shithouse yet.

2011 has been different, to say the least. but a good kind of different. i know who's backstabbed me, who betrays me, who loves and cares for me and i am living with freedom and choice of where i want to go in life a with whom. Uni is a blast, but at the same time, its a drag and i dont want to attend half the lectures. i have found something worth waking up for in the mornings, and i have a steady job and party life. im looking up i think, from all the negative aspects of my past although they will always haunt me in the back of my mind.