#anopost

about how i didn’t end up normal in the sense that im not the idealized version of muself i imagined id be as a child i.e. skinny disney princess with a prince husband and children and as many careers as barbie and how im disappointing my family by not having kids even though i have many reasons i cluding just flat out not wanting kids but also get pangs of baby fever then i gotta bring myself back to reality that i don’t actually want that beyond, again, the super idealized version of that that ive been sold while growing up and like why did i end up the way that i am and did being ostracised and harassed and bullied throughout my childhood have anything to do with it and wouldni have ended up socially """"""normal""""""" if i had just figured out a way to be accepted by my peers instead of being an easy target from preschool to senior year and wanting to kill myself over it every hour of every day from ages 12 to 22 and like

yeah