#anonmeme;

send the anons

Nikolai is a man who, at his darkest, is more afraid of the wellbeing of others above himself. He still carries some more self-centered fears, in the most innocuous meaning of the word: He fears dying and leaving his wife and daughter alone the way he and his mother were alone when he was a boy, he fears being forgotten by the people he loves, but these fears are never as panic-inducing or excruciating to Nikolai as the fear he will outlive his loved ones.

There are multiple ways this can happen, in his worst case scenarios: Someone will discover his real name and track down his family ; He will not be there in time to protect any of his friends in the 141 ; An enemy will hurt his loved ones to get to him ; He will be unable to protect a friend in their hour of need.

send the anons

[It means that he likes them, and that he would like to get to know them better. Sometimes, it means he is comfortable with someone and only joking about. He uses flirting both as a way to build people up and to try and get them to open up to him, since he’s far more of a charmer than any other kind of man.