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This image took quite a while. As in, +/- 60 hours, I think, since I'm not used to working on this large scale, and I used a different technique: I didn't use the pen tool, or any hard outlines, like I normally do.

Thank you very much for your message! I reached out to a close IRL friend when I was still crying (like two hours after) and he helped calmed me down a bit. I'm just really not sure how to respond anymore, it's a very long history of problems and it's not like... It doesn't really look serious, I guess, because it's not like they don't accept my sexuality or something like that which would be a very serious problem. Sometimes I look at other families and I kinda think that I'm not entitled to feel this way because my problems are not as big as theirs, you know? But it hurts me because it is really affecting my life, you know? My father's distance (can you believe that we live in the same house and he barely looks at me and then he turns around and say I SHUT HIM OUT? what?) and he excluded myself from this family because he's addicted to online gaming and lying to people about being 20 years old or something. It really hurts because he basically erased us from his life and my mother is SO submissive and she just agrees with him. I do SO much for her, I fight so hard to stand all the emotional problems I go through here (I think I do have some psychological problem with my self-confidence issues which I have mentioned here before) but I've really been getting nothing in return and it sucks and I feel like they are abusing me emotionally. I feel like they are the reason I cannot get better, they are the reason I keep hating myself daily. I feel like turning my back and walking out of the door, but it's easier said than done. I've been blatantly ignoring everything and not living, just surviving, for SO so long now. I'm sick and tired of it and I just really wanted to fix it, but to do that I need THEM to fix it. Because if I do confront my father it will escalate in something so big that I'm pretty sure I won't be able to look him in the eyes anymore. And damnit if that doesn't hurt like hell.Again, thank you and I'm sorry for just venting on you like that, I don't know what to do anymore and it hurts and I just need... I don't know what I need, I feel like pausing everything to scream for a couple of hours.

Haha, I know you're not :) I don't know, maybe here people in smaller towns do the same, but Wrocław has nearly 700 000 inhabitants, so the sheer number of people doesn't really encourage familiarity.

omg omg alright im just waiting for class to start now