#andstanleypushedabutton

I’ve roughly updated the main muses’ about pages (for all except archivist!Alice, her page is still WIP)

It’s not perfect, but it should be a good enough of a filler until I’m completely done with everything. I’ve seriously slacked off with updating this blog I swear.

Stellan's voice blared out of the loudspeakers, mysteriously not just from the grimdark's Office, but out of almost every other Office around. All thanks went to a certain Bradley who had hooked him up with the necessary 'equipment'.

"This is Stellan Sommers, of dimension T-8900, here to give the most important speech I'll ever give. I'm sure you all know where this is going to go, I'm not the first who has done it but shut up and let me continue. I have decided to throw my old life away. I'm no longer this Stanley Sommers, ex alcoholic and high school drop out with an absent or dead family. I'm no longer just that former protagonist who decided staying in this hellscape was a better bargain than going back to the real world and facing all my disappointments again." "While my past self fought hard to become who I am today, I'm not going to continue in his path."

A beat passed as Stellan gathered his wits, his breath trembling slightly from excitement, or nervousness.

"S-so...Neil Dieudonné de Grammont, this is where I want to pick up. I want to be the Stellan by your side forever. 

I want to be the guy who drinks special 2070s alcohol and studies law even while loving the most infamous pirate of the Multiverse, the man who starts a new family with you, without angst or abuse or sadness. I want to build a gentle home, but also I want to roam every sky of every planet, learn new cultures and find new species to befriend or overtroll. I want to have crazy adventures with you, escape dangers and break laws and still wake you up with pancakes and coffee the next morning. 

Life has never been so exciting before we met and even though I vowed never to become that guy who made cheesy proposals and cried at his own weddings and ended up  being domestic and mushy, I want the entire Multiverse to know that you, Neil, are deeply loved, with all your flaws and all your scars and everything you dont like about yourself, I love them more than you can ever know and I love you, Neil." "One day, we'll grow old together and live the peaceful life we both deserve. With kids or not, we'll happy, safe, content, I promise. 

I want to spend every day loving you for all you are and I want you to let me, and so, Cornelius Dieudonné de Grammont, time and space pirate extraordinaire, coolest pun master in the universe, cuddliest criminal and cutest batty of my heart~"

Stellan paused again for dramatic effect, and the smile in his voice was crystal clear.

“It’s really simple. We have become smitten with each other.”

//why not, exactly? I dont think muns revealing deadnames has anyhting to do with them being transphobic/disrespectful towards trans folks, especially when their muses have found someone close to them they feel comfortable revealing that name.

        Most of the time, a character’s deadname is completely irrelevant to the plot.  Cis writers (bc let’s be real, it’s cis writers who are the issue here) perseverating over a character’s deadname as if it’s something that matters just drives home that they’re approaching transness as something fascinatingly other.  The way trans people relate to and feel about their deadnames- while it obviously varies a lot from person to person within the community- is something that most cis people can’t fully understand, and they give themselves away when that lack of understanding feeds into an almost fetishistic exploration of what they imagine it must be like to spend so much of your life answering to a name that isn’t you.

        There are times when a deadname can come up in a plot.  For instance, I once played a trans character who was publically deadnamed by an old enemy as a major plot point*- it moved the story forwards and also, in a backdoor way, allowed me to explore some of my own gender feels at the time (I had not yet really realized I was trans, though the writing was definitely all over the wall). (*The major plot point was that my dude fought to the death with the person who’d deadnamed him. Cathartic.) However, I don’t trust writers who drop their character’s deadname when it isn’t plot relevant (I’ve seen people straight up listing their character’s deadname on their about page, and boy does that make me nope out over the speed limit) or seem to shoehorn it in all over the place.  Even when it is plot-relevant, there are ways to avoid writing out the name itself, and if I see someone not taking that care, it doesn’t exactly fill me with faith as to their intentions.

i smell................................................................................................................................................................................bullshit~

// tumblr does that sometimes - honestly the most annoying thing is not wanting to be obnoxious by asking everyone if they got the ask after sending it. this site is so broken xP