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I wish my parents would treat you better and don’t make you feel so angry and frustrated and scared all the time. You deserve all the love and care in the world, and I’ll try to give you all the love and care I can myself. I want to be the big sister you deserve!

You’re a brave and sweet little girl that I’ll love forever and ever to the ends of the earth. <3 <3

PS: If there are any more ghosts hiding in your room, just let your big sis know, and I’ll kick their asses over to the 'other side' for ya! ;3

Dear mom,

I think you should be more there for your children and spend more time with them instead of the iPad, the laptop and the TV… Talk more with Stella. Notice that I need you to to notice me more, cause I feel like air. You make me feel like I need to take the father-role in the house… I’m a teenager and sister, not a spare parent…

Love you <3

Dear dad,

Your work seems more important than your family and it is literally driving us all apart and we are all becoming distant and cold, and now it is even setting your health in danger! How many fucking times have you nearly killed yourself because of work and left us others scared and worried because of it by now?! GET A GRIP OF WHAT IS REALLY IMPORTANT TO YOU, DAMNIT!! YOUR LOVED ONES OR WANTING TO PROVE YOURSELF? WE LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO AND DON’T DO FOR WORK. I am beginning to think work is all there is to you… I want a father!! Please be one for fuck sake, if only for once!!! One day this work of yours will be the end of you the way things are, and I don’t wanna lose my dearest dad for good. Even though I already feel like I’ve lost you somewhere along the line… And I need to step in with warmth and understanding and time for my sister every time you are cold, bitter or gone for her.

Though all this angers me, I love you with all my heart. Your daughter(s) love you so very you know...

Dear both of you,

You are so very dear and important to me, so please make me feel like I am the same to you more often too...

Dear future me,

I hope you’ve gotten a hold of yourself! Do the training your body deserves, eat healthy, laugh more with your precious friends, achieved some goals, study a bit harder than you usually do so you have a lot of opportunities ahead of you, feel important and confident in yourself, feel free, speak up for yourself, don’t just tag along with everything, get your opinions, ideas and meanings out there, be more selfish, allow yourself to enjoy anything you want. Love, feel loved, do things you love, show your love to those who deserve it and love yourself!

You damn, idiotic klutz ;D

Dear past me,

What the hell are you doing, silly? Kick their asses, cause they don’t need your kindness. And her? Yeah, she deserves hell, but now she is gone! Rejoice! So many of those things weren’t your fault at all, and you’ve done so much to be proud of! Remember the good things when you feel down like that and don’t harm yourself with delusions, you are more beautiful and loved than you think. You’ll surely laugh and have fun again! Today is not the end. Don’t doubt the people that care about you, and those who don’t aint worth shit.

Cheer up! No need to be that hard on yourself.

Dear person I’m jealous of,

Please realize you have it better than me and many more people in this world. Don’t take it all for nothing.

Dear person I had a crush on,

You beautiful, tall, idiot! I miss you!!! You should have known how many years I was in love with you, how flustered you’ve made me without noticing, the wonderful memories I have with you, but also how hurt I was when you got a girlfriend and I still were in love with you… Now you’re still a good friend though, thank you for that! <3