#and grumpy

"Ugh..."

MerMay 2026 Day 9 - My Little MerPony

money stress on top of the heat is not helping.

i just really feel like there was a shift over the past couple of weeks in the house and i'm so not fucking here for it.

i know for a FACT that they're drinking my coffee and refilling the container i keep in the fridge (again, would be fine but fucking ASK) and on top of that... i'm fucking sensitive to caffeine...when i brew a pot it's half decaf. like, that probably hasn't been helping my annoyedness this week either!

i got my produce box this week and was all excited to make salads but of course now the dressing that i've used literally twice (including earlier this week) is almost empty.

i heard them making pancakes the other day and he went to use syrup and she said "no. i dont want to use that it's almost empty" which confirms my thought of them not ever wanting to use the last of something. they did finish a jar of jam i'd bought and im really hoping the smaller, more expensive one i bought doesn't get used up.

like... for FUCK. i buy things and sometimes they're to be used over time, like the syrup i bought was for a batch of pancakes and waffles i made in july and then froze. now there's 1/2 a tbl spoon left. thanks.

i want to buy more of the condiments they have all fucking used up so i can actually eat and enjoy them but i also really don't because they're just gonna get used up again and not replaced. esp not in a timely manner (and yes, this and the coffee will be something i talk to them about pretty fucking soon cause i can't handle this shit rn)

we are on our last roll of toilet paper. like. LAST. and i bought the last 2 packs.... it's your fucking turn my guys. esp considering my recent realization of two of them using it vs one of me. (same goes for condiments, like... c'mon). i get that SOMEHOW i end up having more money/better budgeting skills than them but that shouldn't and doesn't fucking matter. I'm on EI right now... that's not the fucking same. and it's pissing me off even more because he is *choosing* not to work. she works 3 days a week. when the piano bar is open he's scheduled 2 nights, same as me and on top of that he can pick up in literally every other department. the manager of the theatre side also offered for him to be on their schedule full time over the summer bar shut down. which would be 5 days a week, plus random matinees or kids shows sat am's. he chose to not do that. like... i get that life sucks and money is tight and being stressed about it but you don't get to be stressed about money if you are ACTIVELY choosing to NOT work.

now i'm stressed the fuck out money wise because the utilities come out of my acct automatically and there isn't enough in there to cover that bill. (they sent me rent this morning but not utilities) i've ALSO got a phone bill that's late, i've got to pay to get to work on the 3rd and 5th. (thank god we're finally back) but of course that money won't hit til mid month.) and i have no clue when my next EI is coming in/how much it will be.

like... i want to fucking cry. i should not be this worried about money rn but here we fucking are.

on top of that it's 30 fucking degrees outside (Celsius) and they keep using the fucking oven and this house is a box of solid heat already. first off: i used to live in a BASEMENT and i bought an air fryer specifically to use in the summers cause it was so hot. second: their air fryer is even bigger than mine and more like an oven...so hello?? and now of course cause its 100000 degrees in here the air con gets turned on and i'm scared to see what that does to our enmax bill (it's like, a window unit one, not pumping through the whole house)

UGH.

heather dunbar come whisk me away when???