#and future stuff

I'm getting hints about what my future will be like

and next year

i am going to have actually adult responsiblites

guys im not using grammar look at how terrified i am

like, next fall, i will

1.) be a junior on campus

2.) be the senior student assistant librarian

3.) be the head super tutor for english

4.) turn 20

5.) probably join a club to make friends and that's a scary idea because i don't do things

6.) My younger sister is going away to college which means I'll be worrying about her the entire time

7.) I'm going to have to actually make new friends instead of just accumulating them through my other friends do you even understand how terrifying a prospect that is 

8.) Almost all the profs on campus will know me and expect me to be really good at stuff which ahhh

9.) Some of my decisions will affect the choices of others. And I'll have to deal with that shit.

10.) I expect to have to mentor people which I spend my entire life on tumblr how is that a good idea

So basically struggling with melting down or getting excited for work

imagine if i manage to attract a boyfriend

he'll have to deal with the fact i don't deal with stress well

he'll have to deal with the fact that the more stressed i get the more i bake

he'll have to deal with all of you being one of my major priorities.

gawsh, i just realized i really want a boyfriend to see how that will turn out.