It's odd how despite being surrounded by nature, it still doesn't feel like enough. Perhaps it has to do with the house. Too much technology, and too many tainted memories and feelings that are absorbed into the very structure of the house. I wish to be even further in nature, in a home of my own that I can fill with positive memories, emotions, and laughter.
I'm not sure if I even care about having access to public transportation anymore. I know I need it because I am unable to drive on my own. Perhaps if I can learn to be self sustainable, then I can try. It's not that I want to be completely cut off from technology and the world, I would miss my favorite music far too much. I just wish to be more connected with nature than I currently am.
I loathe how reliant I've become on technology to get me through the day. I constantly find myself on my phone for hours at a time. I can't stand it.