You and our group of friends used to be extremely close in middle school. We considered ourselves a dysfunctional family because we all had our unique weirdness that spiced up our group. However, my connection with the group broke because I moved away to attend another high school. I missed a good 4-5 years of your life as well as, the rest of our group. I don't feel good about it, but I honestly didn't know what to do to keep our friendship as close as it used to be with me not there. Now that I work with you, I felt like I could rekindle our friendship, but right when I feel that, something always happens that makes it clear as day that I am nowhere near a close relationship with you. Something that really opened my eyes to this was when your dad was in the hospital and you bluntly told me that I was the last person you let know because you forgot to tell me. I didn't know whether to take this personal or not, but it happened again. After I had followed up with you to see if you were ok and if your dad was getting better, you told me you were doing well and so was your dad. Thinking everything was ok, 2 weeks later I asked again and you said your dad was in critical condition and he was going to pass away. I'm not sure you believe you are able to rely on me, but I wish you would. Sometimes I wonder if I am being selfish towards your feeling? If I am, I am extremely sorry for only thinking of myself. But to be honest if you ever do read this, I am 100% sure you won't even care because I honestly do believe I am a nobody in your life and it could be all my fault.