[ @ameliaxdalton ]
ā... So this is all just-- this is so much, really. I donāt-- I donāt know what could be actually helpful at this point. And I just feel--ā Madi shut her eyes for a moment, let out a long sigh.Ā āI feel so lonely. I donāt normally have many people I let close, but this-- this is too much and I donāt know--ā She shook her head.Ā āI donāt know how I can keep going with this little alcohol and nobody I could rely on.ā
(It was an absolutely wrong perception, she had people to rely on, she was just actively working on pushing them away or refusing to listen to them, even if to Madi it didnāt feel like it.)
She wasnāt talking to anyone in particular, though, she was sitting near the apiary, her legs crossed, pulling out the grass around her slowly to do something with her hands cause it just kept fidgeting, as she talked to the bees. Something that sheās often did, but especially these last few months, since everything started going downhill. And as far as she knew, nobody was listening in, nobody was close. Why would they, anyway, it was just Madi.










