"how could you do this to me?"
of darker days (not accepting!)
      `you never talk about mom. e-every time i try       and ask you--you just---`
it’s not fair of him to say that. he regrets it as soon asit comes out of his mouth. but he doesn’t take it back.he doesn’t remember--or barely remembers--what reallyhappened when they still lived with beryl. he wants toremember.
but thalia’s the only one who really knows, and ratherthan upset her by even trying to ask again--he’d starteddoing his own research. started looking into things,behind thalia’s back. why would he have told her whenit would only hurt her?
and now she’d found out.Â
--did she see this as some kind of betrayal? he hopesnot. it’s only an attempt to restitch what he couldn’tunderstand about beryl grace. he’s tired of hating her.
he’s tired of feeling guilty about it.
       `--i had to, thalia. i didn’t do it to hurt you. i       just needed to know.`
