#amazing2016

2016 - I know I know

it’s been 2 weeks since the fireworks make a fuss in all over the world

but still I want to write how amazing 2016 have been, because why not

I really felt the whole game of ferris wheel (the excitement to start, how does it feel in the low and high position, the anxiety, the sadness, everything. literally everything)

at the beginning it was a very tough time for me

everything messed up

the dissent between me and my friends that ruin our friendship, my daddy was hospitalized for his pancreatitis, the preasure about my study, been in the long distance relationship (a-aw) till we decided to stop

well, the hard thing is not to deal with our distant and time, but our faith

you know what I mean, eh? we’re not a Cathedral and Istiqlal that could always stand together. it’s the longest relationship evah. aham OK skip.

so yaaa but thank God I still have some friends to hangout with

yes, just hangout and spent a time for happy thingy. since I am not an open person about my privato problemo. I used to think I am my own hero #superwomen

till the next month I have to done my school duty, it was to live 2 months in the village

with no proper signal, no proper pathway, no proper electricity, no gadget (well I allowed, but it have no function there) andddd with everything that so different with the city life

at the first I really can’t deal with it. I kept complaining about the weather, the dirty things, the food, the house, I was really unthankful

till the days and the weeks passed

I realized how bad I was. to be disrespectful, not so thankful

the chance to live in that situation taught me about life. how I gain a new perspective about life.

then I have be back to reality

I fall again.

until God really grab my hand

the time when I really felt, He doesn’t let me walk too far from Him

since the moment that I felt the divine sorrow

I have no doubt to step away from my bad life

but fellas, repentance is not an insurance to get the happy life

wheels keep spinning

in the mid-year I was so frustated about my study and can’t stop blamed myself for what happened

but again when I fall, I fall, but my Dad up there never let my face hit the ground

He send me some people who help me to raise

the self-blame, the worries, the unfaithful heart, that were the intimidation from the devil that don’t like me ‘to be back’

also in 2016 I accept Jesus by my own decision

not because I came from Christian family, or the religious thing that obligate me to declare it

what a beautiful feeling to fall in love more each day with that Person

thank you Lord for 2016, the incredible year ever so far

for the double happy vacation I have

for the uncountable go-home ehee (which I usually find it hard to have a time for my family)

for the new mini family in my not-so-little-family

for Your promise that I keep in faith

for the new challenge You gave me for this 2017 :’) oh God strengthen me

for the responsibilty You put on me

for every people who stand by me, who pray for me, who gave me some lessons

JESUS❤❤❤❤❤

thank you for the heart that you made with a new perspective

the heart that always be sure and believe You have prepare everything that is good for me

Father, thank you❤

PS. I’m writing this with no negative purpose (whatever it is)

PPS. hope this could bless you