When did you realize you were no longer in love with Jo? Ana?
It’s not that I’m not in love with them because I love them, I do and I’ve never really hidden that. But none of it would have worked for a million different reasons and I’m just trying to piece my life back together at the minute.
I made a mug out of Jo and no matter how many times I apologised to her, I know that I’ll just keep doing it because I get away with it. It wouldn’t have stopped, it would have just been a continuous cycle of lying and cheating.. and I didn’t want to put her through that, she deserves better. I felt like I was ruining her and I don’t want that on my conscience, truthfully, she’s too good for me.
Ana is just, well, Ana. It’s a constant competition for her affection, I know that she loves me, but she loves Sawyer too, probably Jackson as well in some way. She gives a bit of her heart to everyone and while it’s admirable, it’s not something I can deal with. I’m selfish, jealous and downright awful most of the time, I like what’s mine to really be mine and I can’t have that with her. It’s fun for a while, but it’s also exhausting, I don’t want to have to be that way anymore.
