i was very close to being very stupid for unidentified reasons that I didn't think through, and then this constant sound was on the door and so I stood up and opened it and in came maxie and she jumped on the bed and was really needy and wanted me to pet her and then she sat there for like an hour and then she left.  i realized afterward that I didn't feel so overwhelmed and i didn't feel as controlled and now i am okay.  i just don't get how great animals are and how they have weird sixth sense things. like how.