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Cont…Dean got the tattoo after the day Castiel drag him to the bee farm and orchard because it was the day he realized he was in love with Cas and he always will be

First of all, welcome back :)

Dean is utterly and he swears on all things holy, terrified of bees. He doesn't understand how can anyone, or one particular someone love them, when they literally sting. He doesn't know why he said yes to Cas when he asked Dean to take him to a bee farm. Well, what sort of son of bitch keeps bees as pets. But he could do that for his pal.

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They are on their way, and Cas is trying to fiddle with the radio.

“We have talked about this, Cas, we have,” Dean pauses, Cas gives him his best why are you so extra all the time look but Dean continues.

“Driver picks the music and passenger shuts his cake hole,” Dean continues.

“We have been listening to Led Zeppelin and mullet rock for 2 hours and there is still another 2 hours of our journey left. I don’t want to reach there. You had your music for first half and I get half. You know it is a compromise.”

Dean knows, if it would have been anyone else, he would have never relented but this is Cas, who he met the first day of college, his roommate of 7 years. They have seen so much together, been through so much together. Cas was there, when John died. Dean was there, when Gabriel got married to Sam. It was weird, that Castiel’s brother married, Dean’s brother. But they were there, when Gabriel annoyed the hell out of them and Sam just sighed and looked at that buffoon with such fondness, like sometimes Dean looks at Cas. No, he is Dean’s buddy and nothing else.

Castiel has changed the music and it is the mixed tape that Dean had given him some time back. YOU CAN GIVE YOUR FRIENDS MIX TAPES. Movies ruin everything, Dean thinks.

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They reach the bee farm and there is an older man, Cain who takes them around. It is beautiful and it smells wonderful, like sometimes Cas does, Dean’s mind supplements. 

His mind had been running amok for some time now, he looks and there is Cas, with a bumblebee in his hand. There is a certain love, that reflects in his eyes, the kind of shine you get when you see something you love, the glint of curiosity. It is amazing. 

And it hits him, hits him like that one time, when he was playing football and the defence line backer, hit him with a force of a hurricane. He had been blindsided then and he is blindsided now. How can he not see, the love that was right in front of him.

Most of the trip goes in Dean reigning his emotions and not looking at Cas. He can’t he would give away. He knows Cas doesn’t feel that way about him, He is too straight forward to not tell him. 

Cas can see his mood slip up but chooses not to say anything. 

***

The weekend after, Dean goes and get a bumble bee near his heart. He wants to acknowledge and remember that this love is forever close to him. To know that his love is without expectation and even if he never get’s Cas he had loved truly.

***

It has been 4 months since the bee farm, when Cas goes in Dean’s room to get a pair of shorts because he had not done his laundry. He wonders how long before Dean get’s fed up of him. His absentmindedness. He wishes he knew the answer. The last seven years have been amazing, their non- relationship relationship withstanding.

Dean is coming out of the washroom and Cas looks at him, a bumble bee on his chest and he can’t believe that it is there. He is flabbergasted and he just stares.

Dean clears his throat.

“Sorry, carry on, I didn’t see anything there,” And he runs and runs. 

***

Dean hates bees, he always tells Cas this, whenever he talks about his future plans, after he retires from teaching. He wants to do what Cain does. 

So, why does he have bumble bee on him, it would only make sense if Dean either likes bees or something or someone other than bees. He knows his brother and Sam both tease them about being a couple and never admitting. He loves Dean with all his heart and have never been able to hold on to a relationship because Dean was always there in the back of his mind, he compared and he compared.

***

Cas returns home, and Dean is on the couch, watching Netflix, his favourite movie, tombstone, which Cas also can recite line by line, insufferable Dean has made him watch it. 

He is furious. They could have been together if not for both of them.

He stands in front of Dean, and grips him by his shoulder and lifts him off the cough and crashes his lips against Dean’s.

Dean is stunned but slowly, the kiss becomes, a kiss, not a battle of dominance by Castiel. 

“You, stupid, insufferable  man, how long?” Castiel breathes against him.

“Bee farm, I realised, always I think,” Dean mumbles.

“I love you,” Cas confesses, a whisper, a finality of knowing, of fitting together. Dean grips him tighter and hums.

I was tagged by @lunarxylop thanks for that. I have no idea what questions to make up! •_•

1. Post the rules

2. Answer the questions given

3. Make 11 questions of your own

4. Tag 11 people (or less lol)

Questions:

1. What is your comfort food?

Dal-Chawal, an indian version of Lentiels and Rice. Made by mum.

2. Your favorite book or books?

The Outsider by Albert Camus, it made me get into classics. And it was gifted by my favorite person.

3. What is your favorite season?

Winters- I love weakening layers, I am all for hot drinks, hot food and Indian summer is horrible. Also, winters everything is calmer and much more beautiful. Also a big fan of jackets. And beanies and caps

4. Three words to describe you.

Intelligent, talkative and loyal

5. What are your hobbies?

Reading- so much, writing, learning new things, doing puzzles, binge watching, wasting time, ha ha

6. What are you currently doing?

Watching Wynonna Earp and trying to answer these questions.

7. If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go?

Europe or Maybe just go to Darjeeling, they have wonderful tea there.

8. How has the internet/fandom changed you?

I learnt how to be a person who doesn't need a name to be accepted by people. And I made some cool friends. :))

9. Best thing about 2017 for you so far?

New job, new home and well loads of coffee and tea.

10. Do you like cooking? If so, what’s your favorite thing to make?

Yes, it is kind of therapeutic to cook- I love making pasta, and poha, and sandwiches. All Indian style

11. Top 5 TV shows.

Supernatural, Stranger Things, Big little lies, Sherlock- S1 and S2 and The Good Wife

1.What’s your favorite piece of clothing to wear?

Jackets and Scarfs. I love all types of layers

2. The last song you heard?

River by Leon Bridges

3. What was the last thing you googled?

Can introverts become extroverts (seriously someone said they got depressed because of being introverts and I just needed to find some validation that depression is not a side effect of being introvert)

4. Coffee or tea?

Both- I don't discriminate

5. What’s the most stupid thing you’ve done as a child?

I jumped off a roof for some money. Thankfully didn't break any bone.

6. What’s your list favorite thing to do

I love to hang out with my friend, I love to read, I love to spend time with mum, cook, sometimes solve puzzles, draw and mostly spend time wasting

7. Favorite gif to use

There is an okay gif which is cool. Can't find it here.

8. Favorite food

Dal Chawal- it is just so good, and Pasta. •_•

9. Last white lie you told

I was not angry with you. Or didn't say anything.

10. Fairy or mermaid

Fairy. I don't want gills

11. Favorite Disney Movie

Inside out- I dunno if it is Disney.

1. Do you prefer DC or Marvel

2. FAVORITE thing about winter

3. Which fictional character you relate to the most

4. If you could go anywhere in the world- fictional or otherwise where would you go?

5. Gold or silver

6. Do you like pen and paper or keyboard to write/work

7. Do you think it matters what you do in life?

8. FAVORITE twitter account

9. Do you like angst or fluff

10. Last time you cuddled with someone

11. One quirk you would like the world to find normal about you

I tag bunch a people who may never answer this- @paradoxical-head @bend-me-shape-me @top-cas-bottom-dean @warlocks-and-angels

19. “I am scared.”

There were many scary things that Dean and Sam knew existed in the world. Their father was  a hunter, is still a hunter. He had regaled them with stories and it had been stories, till they encountered a thunder storm.

But the thunder storm also meant a sleep over with Jo, Benny, Cas, Charlie and somehow Garth also had scored an invite. They had all gathered at Charlie’s place as she had the biggest living area where all the gang could sleep, and talk about ghosts.

Jo had started, “so, this story is about my granddad and he was sleeping, when he heard this knocking sound. He went to open the door and the person had a oil lamp in his hand and was asking about someone who had died 100 years ago. My grandpa being sleepy and shit, told him that no one by that name lived and he closed the door. While he was walking back,” The thunder struck, Dean was sitting in between Sam and Cas. Sam looked terrified. He was the youngest there, along with Jo. But Jo was terrifying, not terrified.

“Yes, he realised who the person was asking for and keep shouting for him to stop for a while in the corn field. After some time, he saw the person stumble.” Jo was making those mysterious noises that get people all the time.

“But there was no person, just an oil lamp, where he saw the ghost stumble. My grandpa never ever opened doors when there was a knocking at 3.” Jo said, and her words were marked by another thunder clap and Jo knocked on the hardwood floor, which made everyone jump.

“Jesus, Jo,” Benny said. Garth had his whole body inside a blanket and no one thought he will come back again. Charlie was the only one who had her phone turned on for some ebay auction of rare comics.

Sam, pulled on Dean’s hand, “Washroom Dean,”

“You go kiddo, right down the hall.” Sam didn’t budge. Cas too had scooted closer to Dean. The whole circle had become more huddled with each word that left Jo Harvelle’s mouth.

“I am scared, Dean.” Dean then understood that the aisle leading to the washroom was dark.

“Jo, you have scared us enough, go accompany Sam to the washroom, fight the monsters together.” Dean had known Jo as long as he had known Sam. He knew that Jo will give his brother some courage and Sam would give her some sense. Hopefully they will not kill each other or that knocking ghost.

***

When Jo and Sam came back, Sam looked more like himself, then the pale version of whoever he had been a while back. They had moved on to a different game, 7 minutes in heaven and it was Dean and Castiel’s turn. It is easier in childhood, with no expectations, where innocence is not corrupted by knowledge.

They were inside the closet, when Cas moved closer. “I am scared, I hate closed spaces.”

“Don’t worry, I am here.” And he hugged Cas.

The monsters were real, even if they were only in your head.

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