#always miserable

Sorry if I haven't been answering questions/requests/messages. Life happened so I'm not gonna be super responsive for awhile lmao

You know when you're a huge dreamer and you fill your head with ideas of what is going to happen and how great things are going to to be and how much fun you're going to have when you go to this place or do this thing and then you do the thing or go to the place and anxiety implodes, reminding you that no matter how many times you have tried and will try to do this thing anxiety will come to cripple you and you will never be able to enjoy it as you imagined you would in your head?

nothing ever goes my way. i try and do the right thing, i always do things with the best of intentions, both for me and others, i always believe that the decision ive made is the best one, one that will make me and others happy. but in the end, the only one screwed over is me