#aluve

its currently on a mega sale on steam! its like £10 and the bundled with kingmaker version was like £9 for me cuz i owned kingmaker?? somehow?? and i already had some money on my account leftover from something awhile ago so i ended up getting it for dirt cheap dlkjgdfg everyone recommended i don't get the dlcs so i didn't ....

i'm not very far in at all but its pretty neat so far, character creations good, lots of classes to choose from, really neat for build making? superior to bg3 in this regard .....

voice acting is hit n miss but i think i've hit the part where it happens very sparringly which is good. cuz it was taking me out of it a bit LJSKDFSF but that's just my.. elitist opinion ..!!

so far so good !

i made an angel bloodline aasimar oracle purifier with warrior of the holy light paladin to grab smite .... high STR, CON and CHA ... ^_^ lawful good etc etc ..!!!! there's this mythic stuff in the game ??? and i'm gonna go for the angel mythic cuz uh. obviously..!

Care: How does your OC engage in self-care, if at all? If they don't, why not?

i don't think afhiri would associate anything they do with self-care, and i don't know if i would either.. but afhiri does practice self-soothing. with the upbringing they had, they were forced to be their only comfort and reassurance. she learnt from a young age to self-soothe and look after herself.

playing the flute is part of this, so is songwriting and poetry. all of the bardic things afhiri takes part in comes from a place of self-soothing. but no one would know afhiri is even in a position to require self-soothing because it's not something they know how to communicate or show. i wouldn't even say gale fully understands the signs even after being with afhiri for years.

afhiri is a difficult one because while there is a level of emotional maturing from having to be a third parent for so many children, afhiri.. reverts from this when they leave on their adventure.

the afhiri that we know and love, and the companions grow to know and love, is not the afhiri she was when she lived with her parents in baldur's gate. that afhiri is responsible and mature, was an adult long before she was 18 years old, and the second she was free from this suffociation of responsiblity, they reverting to a child.

she is carefree and reckless and silly and fun because there is finally an opportunity for it. but that doesn't mean she knows how to communicate her wants and needs suddenly.

Future: Is there anyone your OC is looking forward to meeting or to seeing again? Who? What might that meeting or reunion look like?

Self: How is your OC's relationship with themself? Does your OC like who they are? Is there anything about themself that they would change?

Faerene often struggled with self-image. Feeling like she never really fits anywhere was a huge part of her life pre-game. She often tried to act like people around her do, feeling like that's the proper way (esp as someone who was raised in a noble household with all the etiquette in place) but it always made her miserable. She always struggled with trying to find out who she actually is as a person and which mannerisms she adopted are truly hers or just something she does in a desperate need to be accepted. The events of the game effectively remove that safety blanket for her - the circumstances she finds herself in are nothing that she could predict or imagine. But in a way it's freeing. There are no rules, no etiquette to follow, she can only be herself. And that's when she finds out who she really is.

Friendship: What's your OC like as a friend? How are they at making new friends? What are the most important friendships in your OC's life?

Faerene is a very closed off person and quite introverted. She doesn't initiate friendships easily and rather falls into them by circumstance. Before the nautiloid she hasn't really ventured out to broaden her social circle. That being said she can be very warm and loving to her closed ones. She just needs some time getting used to them. She might look distant at first but once you get to know her more she can be very chatty, silly, and quite affectionate. She hasn't really made any close connection before the nautiloid either, the fear of rejection preventing her from trying to reach out. The found family she has is very important to her, especially her connection with Karlach who is like a big sister to her, and Wyll, who always has this soothing presence about him that reminds her that everything will be okay.

Fate: Does your OC believe in destined meetings? True love, soulmates, hearing the bells? Have they ever experienced this?

Faerene's entire life is a product of fate. She was fated to be born out of the roots of a faerie tree and she was destined to venture out and find what happened to her archfey mother. She often felt like fate was this huge force that decides what happens to her in life. In a way it's freeing - you don't have to make decisions if they are made for you. But it was also making her miserable. Was the nautiloid crash also fated? The way her peers treated her as an outcast as a child? Suffering is easier when it has meaning so it was natural for her to leave it all to fate. But it was after the nautiloid crash when she started to question this. What if things just happen? What if there are no destined meetings? What if we are the ones responsible for our own fates? What if we can write our own stories? So in short: she used to believe in things like love at first site. She used to wait for someone like that also. Hoping one day she will meet them, be it her love or just someone to connect with. It never happened. It was only after she stopped hoping for some unknown power to save her that she somehow stumbled upon love. Quite literally so, as no fate could predict her pulling out her future husband out of a rock.