#alterspark

Oh Primus okay this might get a lil convoluted, I really like using xenopronouns that reflect my past lives, for example: bot/botself. But I don't think I used those in my cannons... Maybe I did? I'm not sure.

Either way what I'm trying to say is the pronouns I use online or on the daily are different from my kin ones. As the person I am now I feel uncomfortable being gendered in any way but if I'm having a mental shift that changes...

Also take these with a giant grain of salt because Cybertronian gender feels different than human so that complicates things as well.

I know that as Ravage I was she/her, I might've used some other pronouns too but I don't remember exactly. It's definitely the biggest change since I'm usually quite uncomfortable with being perceived as female or feminine or having she/her used for myself.

I think Starscream used all pronouns, mostly he/they but I really didn't care as much. It's not as big of a change since I do feel like my gender is a bit fluid sometimes but tbh that might be because of my alterhumanity.

I can't exactly remember what Cyclonus used... I think either they/them or neopronouns, like zhey/zhem. This one has the least differences to my current preferred pronouns. They where the first fictionkintype that I kinfirmed and are a really important part of my identity so that might also have had some impact on that.

Both of my Cybertronian identities (Cyclonus and Starscream) are autistic, and I do believe it has impacted some of the decisions I've made and things I've done in my past lives.

As Starscream I definitely think that having a physiology hyperfixation helped me, thought I didn't really use that knowledge for good. I fixated on reading into people's expressions and body language, which could be partially due to the fact I initially didn't understand them. I miss being able to swim with my wings and claws, it helped me calm down when I was getting paranoid or seeing things.

I was definitely semi-nonverbal as Cyclonus which is why I tend to be seen as mysterious or stoic, both in cannon and by the fandom/source. I do really like talking though, about things I like, poetry, songs, writing, and swords. I loved analysing texts or words of any form, it was my special interest. I think I also had chronic fatigue, thought I'm not sure if that counts as a disability.

In both lives I didn't like noise, in general, but loud noises especially, worst of all was when bots would talk over one another. My audials were very sensitive.

I also had chronic pain/back and joint pain though I'm not too sure which life it was in, might be all of them.

(Most of the things I struggle with in this life I also did in past lives. Thought do take this with a bit of salt since I don't have many kin memories. I'm mostly going off of phantom shifts and thus my experience is tinted with my current disabilities.)

- Starscream [G1/IDW] & Cyclonus [IDW]

Technically not mine but my trinemate, Thundercracker, had a pet. At least in our source he did. I'm still trying to figure out what memories are real and which are daydreams or influenced by cannon.

It was a dog, her name was Buster and she was the sweetest thing ever. When Thundercracker was on Earth he would send us (me and my other trinemate, Skywarp) pictures and video of her. She was the smartest terran animal I've ever seen, somehow TC managed to teach her tricks. In the source she's a mix between a pug and beagle however I remember her as a mix of different breeds with more german shepherd features.

P.s. Skywarp was really skeptical of her at first, but he became extremely attached to her once he realised how smart she is. He tried to train her to help him pull pranks at one point. You can imagine how well that went...

- Starscream [G1/IDW Transformers]