@alonefear said:‘ i didn’t mean to worry you. ’ - from Nico
hiding beneath the bed was first resort to marti, because somehow, in the back of his mind, he thought running into a random closet as a hiding spot seemed like free ammunition for something dumb that might leave luchino’s mouth . never did it cross martino’s mind , that this big random game of hide and seek was leading to something more - but he should know better . to giovanni , bracciano was the answer to everything . this was how they ended up locked in a room together , finally speaking ... because he couldn’t do it himself .
he’d eventually come out from beneath the bed, nico’s words freshly in his mind . not too long ago , marti picked a fight with a stranger just because he’d thought the absolute worst . built up emotions wrapped around like a blanket . dark eyes fell to the floor, darted to the wall, the ceiling ... never too long on his former boyfriend . chest tightened just thinking about the past few days ...
“ cazzo ... “ muttered entirely to himself, martino sits at the edge of the bed, feeling defeated on sight . it was himself that continued telling the others he had nothing to say, so many times over and over . all marti did was cry . ask questions to others, only nico could give answers to - but at the time he refused to talk . if martino was being honest, the paranoia grew as it felt nico shut a door in his face .
“ ... it was more than worrying ─ i didn’t feel i was enough for you ─ “
the truth hurt more than anything , which is why he believed nico wouldn’t talk to him about a potential affair of his past ─ their disconnection made him feel worthless .
