#almost22

Today is New Year's Eve of 2017. Wow has it been one hell of a year. I wished I remembered more of it so I could write it all down. But from what I can remember (Which is part of January and May to now), it was quite a blast. As another year draws to a close, I want to recall what I can remember.

On January 13th, I turned 21. I also remember working that day because they just tried to take the hours away. Being a broke college student, you take whatever shifts you can.

February 28th, my old GM left the company I work for. (I miss her something fierce. But I know she's doing better at her other job). On the 12th, my niece turned 4. She's growing up so fast. It's totally insane.

The month of March, my aunt and my mom's birthday were that month. My former assistant manager was manager for the month (total chaos). I saw Logan with a friend I no longer see. My dearly departed friend would have turned 22 if she were still with us. Happy Birthday Janie. And a lot of other things that escape my memory.

The month of April, a lot less rain that I thought. I made a post about the grocery store by my job misspelling hoagie. We live where hoagies were invented? How on green earth does anyone misspell it? I starting posting a lot of prose on Instagram. I got dissed by a guy that wanted sex from me. Not even halfway through and I got my heartbroken. (Still eight more months to go).

The month of May, I hung out with my friend Adriel (I was on my phone and I apologize for it). I met another guy and we hit it off. I hung out with my brother from another mother and my sister from another mister. May was also the month I self harmed after doing it three or four months prior. It was a struggle and I tried not to. But seven months, I am clean. It takes a lot to not harm yourself.

There isn't much to say about the month of June. The one thing I did remember is my late stepson's birthday on the 26th. He would have been 11. Happy birthday mijo. You celebrated with the angels.

July was an interesting month. The anxiety of my last semester was creeping up. I got into fights that my boyfriend at the time would pick them over the littlest things. I couldn't even go to a party with my mother without this guy getting mad at me. I was comforted by a friend I am currently not speaking to. I met my close friend for the first time ever in person. Not many of my friends have gone out of their way to visit me from states away. That made my entire year. But the darkness overshadowed the good. By the end of it, I was scarred for life and single.

August was when it all started. The beginning of the end. I grew closer to my friend. Dangerously close. Eventually, I got too close. And there was a time where we were on totally different wavelengths. It discouraged me. I started my last semester of school. I saw old friends and met new ones. I found an internship and I was set.

September was when it all grew dark. My medicine stopped working and I hadn't gotten my new one approved. The descent began here. Despite this, I still did my work and came to class. There were days where I was exhausted for no reason and there were days I skipped out on class to take a personal day. It was becoming too much.

October was part of the fall. I slowly got worse and worse. My internship was going in circles and I was being refused hours. On the bright side, I wished a former partner Happy Birthday. Happy birthday Bella. The greatest part of the month was doing the school's haunted house. I was painted up as a zombie and felt fabulous. I got to scream my head off and scare people. It was a total mad house. But I loved it. Thank you to my friends for making it fun.

November is where things began to look up. But there were still downs. I finally got my proper medicine. From there, I started improving. On the 18th, I started my blog here. It's been a blast for me. I enjoy going through the aspects of my life and sharing my experiences. It makes me happy that I can help others through my stories. I busted my ass at my internships, in helping my friends, in class, and doing all my work. Unfortunately, I'm not speaking to my male best friend. He wasn't exactly supportive during my struggling months and brushed my feelings aside when I told him what I was feeling. Hopefully with time, I can talk to him again. But I finally saw things as they were and I finally had some control back.

December was by far the second best month of my year. So many good things happened. I made Dean's List with my final grades. I'm officially a college graduate. I start a new job on January 16th. I made a lot of new friends. I spent time with the friends that made this year wonderful on December 20th, where we saw the Christmas lights and made s'mores. In the final days, I saw my ex Yumi and got to speak to her. I'll probably see her a lot more now that I work downtown. I just hope her boyfriend doesn't try to kill me at some point. I also got close to my best friend again. I appreciate her being there for me.

Overall, it's been one hell of a ride. But I wouldn't trade it for anything. Because it's shaped me into someone that can overcome. Someone that is strong. Someone I can be proud of. I want to thank my followers and readers for their loyalty and kindness. It really warms my heart.