Alright I'm taking the risk. I've really got no other choice. I'm not able to read or remember shit. I spent the weekend wanting to genuinely kill myself, then I was suddenly cured and high yesterday night and couldn't sleep at all, I was so restless. I was high until maybe 1-2 hours ago, and now i just feel numb again and nothing's going in my head. And I'm SO mentally tired. And the worst part is still that this isn't the first time this has happened, atp it's been happening for more than 6 months. My appointment with the college counselor is literally at 10 PM (not complaining tho because they accommodated me last minute no questions asked, and that poor woman is working so late). I still feel like I'm making up reasons for not giving my exam and i still feel horrible about it, but there's nothing i can do, i really tried to study and I'm not able to do it. A girl in my class told me that i can give the medical certificate after the exam too, so I'm just gonna take the risk. Just hope they believe me. I just feel like I'm actively ruining my life by being incompetent tho
